As Things Take a Turn For The Worse

Finishing up the Chemistry paper was an "easy feat". No really, skipping questions and running out of time to finish them. Isn't it easier to end your misery this way? =)

Together with Paper 1, which made everyone scramble for time by randomly selecting an answer as time ticks by in the last 5 minutes, with 15 questions on the line, I think it's enough to say that this Chemistry paper is close to the "real thing".

Oh well, it's difficulty was expected, but my inability to answer many can't be blamed on the paper, but on myself.

Thanks to my "self-control" mechanism, everything went out of control instead. And the results will be reflected once I receive the papers from the tutor's hands after they finish marking.

Figures, what's the most optimistic score I can get from this? I don't even wish to ponder. Seeing all the blanks and unanswered parts is enough to kill me already.

Oh well, that's 2 down, one H2 paper left and then it's H1 Physics. Will things continue to worsen for tomorrow's Econs paper? We'll see...

~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~

Back to School...

And the Common Test begins with Maths as the second of 4 subjects to be tested!

Ranging from lightbulbs to items with defects, a plethora of questions are there to stump you!

Of course, all these came by me today, as well as a few others that I will end off with.

That's why last minute studying is bad! I should really have controlled myself ~_~.

Oh well, what's done is done. There's only one place to look to now: forward.

Chemistry test tomorrow, and even more madness to come. At least we'll get a break on Thursday and Friday.

But anyway, that's for the test. The next interesting thing would be considering the H1N1 flu outbreak, I wouldn't be surprised schools are taking up measures for temperature taking and such.

However, I never realized that JJ would be.. so elaborate on this O_O. It was a first for me to see, slightly chaotic, but at the same time I could feel the organization within this chaos. Glad to see that preventive measures are in full force!

Next few days would be really tough x_X rushing studies here and there [I regret it!] and attempting to finish lots of stuff. Prepare to see more fun stuff tomorrow and day after! :o

To end off: Light cabbage, heavy cabbage. They are all cabbages... right? That's why we need to know that vegetables are good for your health! >< *cold joke* [If you get what I mean, great!]

That's all from me =).

~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~

The Midnight Madness Has To End!

Before I begin, I hereby apologize for any typos made by me in this post.

Wow, it's 2 (or should I say 1?) day before school reopens and I'm awake at this time!

It's killing me of course, I'm desperate for some sleep currently. Once I'm done typing this I'm off to bed!

After the few weeks of holidays (seriously holidays to me), I wonder what I could have actually done in the process to change the outcome today.

Oh well, what's done is done. We have to walk forth and not look back... right? xD

Too many things to do, unknown if time is still on my side. I doubt so, so I'll have to run forth and grab it before it flies out of my grasp.

Less than 24 hours left, huh? We'll see...

Something You May Want To Try

Hm, just a quick post here.

I just did this test, it's pretty long, but it's pretty interesting as well.

Something about... Aspie? I'm not very sure what it is, but I'll have to go take a look at the description again.

This is my result:



along with:

Your Aspie score: 91 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 123 of 200
You seem to have both Aspie and neurotypical traits.

Don't understand what it means though.

You can take the test here: Click me!

Enjoy taking this long test! Take your time and answer the questions ;)

Reflections Under the Moonlight [VIII]

Ah, what's everyone doing I wonder? Hopefully, your "studying schedule" is still in place and going smoothly, cause mine definitely isn't.

Back with another reflections series, but as a continuation of the previous one.

Let's see...

To recap, the previous post was the irony between friends which are distant versus those which come into contact with me 200+ days a year.

I recall saying something like this to my buddy: [something along this lines, but I compiled everything I was saying to him]

It's like, I'm closer to those friends that I rarely come into contact with

Yet I'm more distant from those that I see so regularly.

In fact, I think the relationship between those close friends of mine may be so close we could be seen as classmates instead.

As for my real classmates, huh. Other than a few close ones I have, the rest are just like acquaintances studying in the same classroom.

That's the plain, cold truth. I have nothing further to comment about it. Sorry if you feel offended, but I think this will let you know how I feel further.

So now, on to today.

The thing about friends. What do we see them as? How are we perceiving them to be in future? Are they just like a passing wind? Or are they like a stone set into a house?

In fact, how do we define "friends"? I can never get this, and I don't think I ever will. I have a vague definition in my mind, but that's it.

For those who know me in real life, I for one, look nerd/geeky. Uh okay, differing opinions but that's how I'm seeing myself! ><

Another thing being that I don't like coming into contact with people, talking to them etc.

That isn't true actually. I love socializing with people, as long as I have the opportunity to. In fact, I think I don't mind at all, cause this may be the one way to drag me out of computer addiction.

Yet, I think it's because of the way I act in situations that make people avoid or even possibly hate me. And then it slowly drags down the line to avoiding to have anything to do with me.

It always is a comfort to have someone to talk to, and always will be. Sadly though, it gets hard at times to find a listening ear when you need it, especially in a situation like mine. And when I do find a listening ear, and if the opposite gender, people like to stir idiotic rumors about us being together. Like, GROW UP. Of course I don't mind the comments [other than the rolling of my eyes], but please don't think too deeply into things.

Maybe, that's what friends are for. To provide a listening ear when you have troubling matters. Maybe, that's what I need to find in a friend.

Yet maybe, I have always been mistaken about my classmates and people around me, so I don't confide in them. Maybe, it was just my ego pulling me back.

No one knows...

Just yesterday, when I was watching Red Thread [Channel 5 drama], one of the characters said this:
"Children find it hardest to confide in their parents, because they don't want to disappoint them."

This line hit me hard in the face, and it touched me much in the heart. It is totally true, and I think many will agree with me as well.

I'm friendly to anyone, as long as they are friendly to me. I don't take hostility much, but criticism is well accepted. Just don't mind me when I attack back :o. That happens at times.

Oh along with that, for those who I have offended in the past, do forgive me cause many words said come out without going through thinking.

When we say "THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK", it's actually hard. Especially if you're one who is more straightforward.

It's when we think, that we understand whether it's a rationale decision to say such stuffs.

Where friends are concerned, in just a few days, I'm returning to school. Will there be any changes? I doubt so, cause not many of my classmates read my blog. At the same time, hardly any have spoken to me through MSN before. BUT! For those who have spoken to me, I greatly appreciate it. If I ever ignored you [like JL for so many times! ><] please forgive me! Wasn't meant to do it on purpose, but... most MMORPGs run on full screen =x. At least I'm cutting down on gaming as the time for examinations approaches.

No matter what happens, having friends standing by you at your weakest point is heart-warming.

I am apprehensive in approaching people to strike up a chat, cause I'm not that sort of guy. Maybe that will change in future though.

Things are uncertain, but I have a feeling things will not change even till the end of the year. Prove me wrong, please.

I like getting invited out, regardless of whether it's to movies, BBQs, or even lunch [even though I still haven't solved the problem], cause at the least I know that you consider me a friend.

If I reject your kind gesture, don't take offence. It is not meant to be offensive, just that I cannot go for some reason or another. Being active in social life is what one needs to "get a life", no?

When I hear my classmates actually talking about whatever "BBQs, dinner, steamboat", it makes me envious, but at the same time makes me ponder: why was I not invited?

Obviously the next thing comes which is "CLIQUES". Cliques click well together [pun intended], and that's why they get along more often than others. Sadly though, I can tell I'm not of any clique. Too bad for me.

Even if I do go out for certain class activities, people seem to... avoid me. Am I THAT scary? Or is there a hidden reason? These sensitive issues will be difficult to resolve...

This cycle will be difficult to put an end to, but as time progresses on, I'll continue trying to. Is it too late to bond up with some of my classmates now? We'll see.

-signs off- [Edit: Cool! 444 views :o]

Reflections VII - An Irony I Cannot Deny

Today... pretty interesting, and fruitful I would say. What's fruitful in my opinion? Anything other than gaming at home for the whole day.

Just in case anyone wants to know, I haven't been studying for the past 2 weeks or so. Interestingly, the "steam" ran out within the first week. I don't know when I'm going to restart my studying again, but I know when I do, it's going to be a mugger's haven.

So now, on to what happened today. It was a movie outing... with my friends.

Not just any friends though, but with people I met in an online game.

We went to watch Monsters vs. Aliens [cause there wasn't Night at the Museum 2 at the theater and we were lazy to move elsewhere], a movie which I might say was both funny, and weird...

Then it was followed by dinner [which I didn't eat, some of you guys may know why], and some bonding [chit-chat] session.

The fun part was, I managed to help one of my friends get a plushie she really wanted in a machine. It's hard to describe how it works though, but it's like a pushing...thingy. Scoop some sweets, place it on this pusher and hope it manages to push a plushie down for you! It was nice seeing her so happy, although we [3 of us playing the game] spent I think nearly 20 bucks for 3 toys and 2 sweet xD!

What's all the irony in this?

The irony is -- I'm closer to people I have met in real life only less than 10 times, but I am way distant [or so I feel] to people that meet me practically 150+days a year.

That is not attacking anyone, it's how I'm perceiving it.

Is it my fault that things turned out this way? Or was it them? Or maybe I should say, both sides are equally at fault.

No one wants to be like this, at least not to people who want to be social. It's just that certain things that happen may have drawn us apart, rather than closer.

I'm not surprised, and I think some may even dislike me of sorts. Not that someone said it right in my face before, but I would LOVE to have someone do that, cause it allows me to improve, rather than remain in a "cold war" with them.

Of course, I cannot completely blame them, I am at fault too. Constantly improving is what I need to do, and many things in life I have not achieved. Motivation is the key to success, yet I seem to lack it. I know that I have done wrong in the past, but never take one mistake, blow it up and remember it forever, cause it wasn't on intent, and it most likely will never occur again.

People grow up, so do I. I need time to think, and I need people to understand. But this doesn't mean you need to run away from me.

Of course, I'm very happy that some of us actually talk to me. See, even talking to me already makes me feel happy. Even better, some are concerned over how I'm progressing with my health problem, and that really makes me glad. I hardly get such comments from people, and even more people talking to me.

Why is that so? Only you will know...

This will continue in another post, either on Sunday or a later time. I think I've said enough for now...

[No I'm not emo ._. just stating what I observed! I don't get emo easily alright =/]

-signs off-

Time is Parallel in Me

...or is it?

Depends on how I look at it I suppose. It's been some time since I've posted, but don't expect much from this post here.

First up, today was the day I went for an Exoro Challenge. It was pretty sweet meeting up with some people from other schools, even better was chatting with them online =x. Hilarious things all around from start to end.

It seemed to me of more like a physical challenge than that of a mental challenge, considering the amount of time my team spent running around the whole area trying to do transactions. [Team 29 here, btw]

I wonder though, time went by pretty quickly just when we get warmed up, yet it feels like it drags on when things move slowly. What's this phenomenon anyway?

And here I am, at 4am, busily typing out a blog post. Well, in a way it's cause I'm not asleep [DUH], but in another, I'm staying awake to do... some stuff on my games x). See how avid a gamer I am?

This doesn't occur often, though. It was a pretty rare chance for me to experience a Live event, even more so contribute to it. 3 plays, from 12 am stretching to 5am. I wonder how long I'll last? Hopefully I sleep by 5:15 though, today's Exoro challenge has drained pretty much all my energy, but I think my 2 dinners in a go returned them back... much. Sleep is of course more important! =).

Anyway, being a gamer is a very interesting thing. I think I can use an avid gamer's perspective to see certain things in future. We'll see. Time will tell all truths...

-signs off-

Get Phucked by GP >_>

Figures. Where did my color code function go? Anyway, although I'm late by a day, I guess I'll just discuss about what happened yesterday: GP [known as General Paper, or just "English" for those who don't know] Common Test.

All I can say is:

HOLY SH*T! DID THAT JUST HAPPEN?

I totally felt like the paper F*ed me upside down >_>. Totally. And I don't think many others were spared either.

If this is the kind of paper I'll get for my A's, who knows? I may very well fail ._.

Obviously I'm praying that doesn't happen. We'll see as time continues to flow...

-signs off-

My Personality - From Different Perspectives

Considering how long it's been since I posted, I decided to post this so that you guys won't get too bored of the current post.

FYI, the link to IMEEM for Yui - Again has been removed. In fact, all of the videos, songs regarding this song were removed x_X. I'm going to find an opportunity to get one back, so be patient ;)

Anyway, I did this test on Facebook quite some time back, and I realized it was pretty accurate, especially for me. Lemme show you the results.




Eng just took the "What Month Were You Born?" quiz and the result is December.

You're loyal and generous.
You're also patriotic.
You tend to be competitive in everything.
You’re impatient, hasty, and ambitious.
You're influential in organizations and fun to be with.
You're easy to talk to, though hard to understand.
You're easily influenced by kindness, polite and soft-spoken.
You tend to have a lot of ideas.
You're sensitive, active, and hesitating so you tend to delay.
You're choosy and always want the best.
You happen to be very temperamental.
You are funny and humorous though.
You love to joke.
You have excellent debating skills.
You always have someone on your mind.
You're talkative, a daydreamer, and friendly.
You really know how to make friends.
You’re loveable and easily hurt.
You love music.

Interesting that the color function on Blogger disappeared.

Anyway, see the lines above? Those bolded totally apply to me. The ones non-bolded do apply, but not necessarily to the fullest extent.

See the one in italics? That, I'm a little skeptical of. I don't mean I don't know how to make friends, but... yeah, just skeptical of it. I think it's more of me though.

This was one of the most accurate personality tests I took, and I think you should too ;)

The test link is here

>>> Click Me! <<<

Have fun with the test ;) Share with me your results! I want to know =x

What do you think of mine? Do you think it applies to me? Feel free to use the Cbox [which is getting dusty due to no usage]

-signs off-

Again

A few posts back, I posted something about attempting to sing a song, but was tongue tied by some of the faster parts. Well, today is the time to reveal what song it is.

I actually knew the song from watching Full Metal Alchemist - Brotherhood [anime], and got pretty interested in the song.

Well, I get interested in any songs inside my favorite anime anyway =x

So, this song is sung by Yui, who came back from a hiatus after 5 months. It's a pretty nice song actually, but I'm still stuck with trying to sing some of the fast parts! LOL

If I can't even handle this, I can forget about raps =p

The reason why I'm posting it now is cause her CD album containing this song is out today! yay~

So, here it is! Yui - Again
>>>>Click me!<<<<- Credits to PandaKiss! [I think you don't need an IMEEM account to listen to it now..] For this one I think I can only use IMEEM cause YouTube videos continuously get removed. You can find the lyrics here: [Credits to iShare Corner + finella.nemissa.info for the lyrics!]
>>>>Click me!<<<<

Also, here's another version of the same song. It's played on piano, and I actually find it really well done, other than a few weird keys here and there. Enjoy!


That's all from me for today, I'll be back with the other FMA song tomorrow! ;)

-signs off-

Day III - Time

Ah, seems like I havent really had time to do blogging these few days... [and my apostrophe is screwed up, again. >_>]

First, planning for revision started 3 days back, and it seemed as though I had enough time while I was midway through planning. Once I reached the third week though, everything sets in very slowly...

Originally, everything looked like it was "just right". Then when I looked further into it, I would have just enough time [and I do mean just enough] to complete all revision, provided I do follow my scheduled timetable.

Thing is, yesterday I made a crucial error. Practicing Maths for the whole day from morning till night, I totally forgot to refer to my timetable. Until today...

I checked, and I realized I missed out some revision on other chapters! O_O This isnt good. It just means I need to speed up my revision today or I would really not have time to complete everything. [Oh but, I think some parts of my schedule are too imba, like today x_X]

Tutors always say from the start of the year "It is time to start your studies NOW. If not, if you start during the June holidays, you will not have time."

Im beginning to pick that up in my mind >_>. Lets just hope that I have enough time, yeah? If not, I am so, so dead. Crucial period, it definitely isnt a time to screw myself up.

I just realized the Maths revision booklet was so thick I couldnt finish all the questions! LOL =x But oh well, I suppose I can use it for future revision...

Heres a song I found that could relate to what Im thinking, and what I wish I could do. It is also one of my favorite classic songs x). Enjoy!

-signs off-