Distorted Reflections [V]

This post is dedicated to everyone who thinks I'm a mugger at home x).

So now, lots of my friends in school totally disbelieve me when I say this:

"I don't study at home one >_>. More of slack, use computer... do nothing."

And the reply goes "YA RIGHT!"

Of course they would say that xD. I don't look like the sort who just goes using the computer for the whole day on end and not study, but still get decent [not good] results.

In fact, what they see, is not what they know me to be! I am an avid computer user. By avid I mean using the computer on and on and on for hours non-stop without rest kind of thing.

What does this mean? It means I don't study... or even if I do, it's pretty much broken up into tiny chunks cause I keep getting distracted by the computer! [This gets my studying nowhere]

I think the best proof for this would be me being online the whole day after I reach home. Even if my mode is "away", it doesn't literally mean that. If you talk to me on MSN, 90% chance I'll reply. That's what happened, and is happening now anyway.

And here begins a short [PLEASE DEFINE SHORT!] story about me and my computer x).

Now, I got my computer at a pretty young age. I think when computers were first released, within the first year, I had my hands on one of them. Ever since then I've been using computers to do lots of things.

This may pretty much be why I have a computer addiction...

Yes, I do have a computer addiction -.-. Trust me people. I think this is pretty common in society currently.

The reason for computer addiction? Frequent usage of the computer, thanks to me playing LOTS of computer games. And I seriously mean lots. But I think 'lots' is a relative term for people.

I can play 'em from day till midnight, sleep, and play the next day I wake up. It's what people define as "no-lifer". I'm used to that term.

But just recently, it seems as though this addiction is... subsiding. It could be me, or it really is happening. Now my switching on of the computer is a habit, not an addiction.

The only reason I can find would be this: My avenues for gaming is nearly gone.

Previously, I played pretty much a wide variety of games in the same day. Maybe jumping around 4 MMORPGs within that 24 hours.

Then as time goes by, I kick off some of those I don't like, and I stuck to one - Grand Chase.

After that, the SEA server for Grand Chase shut down [refer to my 2nd blog post]. This meant that I literally had no games I was actively playing.

Of course, there were, and there still are, some MMORPGs that are in my computer, but I don't feel attached to them at all. The only thing I'm doing for now is Facebook gaming xD.

That is like, what? A few minutes of it only, then wasting lots of hours before returning back to do the same thing again. That's how I'm wasting time currently, which is why I feel TOTALLY bored for hours now.

Heck, with Grand Chase [GC] gone, it's like the attachment to the computer is gone. I want to do other things to fill my boredom. People suggest me some things.

But, I know that someday, when any other server opens up to Singapore players, I just may return [or 99% return, actually] to the game. It was a great game I liked, but until then, it's just complete boredom for me.

Understand now people? I'm not who you think I am. I don't mug, neither do I do intensive studying.

If I do, that's LOTS of self-control added on to me until I study, and study HARD. Like 8 hours non-stop. But that doesn't mean the computer isn't switched on =p. I have it on to listen to music for relaxation.

So, hope you guys understand me better from this. I am a gamer, not a 'studyer'. I slack, laze around whole day, not mug. Hope I got this area cleared up x).

Just in case, before you ask, no, I don't study during the weekends. In fact, I ain't currently! hahahaha! Weekends to me are perceived as slack days ;).

Oh and, it's not that I want to be a no-lifer, alright? It's that things in my life restrict what I desire in life. Once they are gone, I pretty much should be able to gain the life I want.

Of course, that includes kicking the habit of using my computer. I have to thank my eyes for being able to maintain near perfect eyesight for the years I've used the computer, until now. X_x I placed it under too much stress!

I'll be back sometime in future with another 'Reflections'. Lots of things to talk about.

-signs off-