Reflections III - Growing Up

I just realized, the previous few posts [or actually almost all] were depressing, long posts! Was that was a blog was used for? XD

But anyway, don't worry, I'll lighten up much more in future posts. The first few posts were what I was feeling as I typed down my feelings anyway.

Today's post... I doubt it would be depressing, but it's a really nice read to have. That's because as a male [not saying all males!], I don't really like to tell anyone of my troubles, just bottling them up inside my heart. But I made an achievement, in the midst of the 'crisis' I would be facing.

I finally told my father, personally, about my problem.

Hey, it's a big achievement, at least for me! I was really happy I opened up, and was actually ready for anything he was going to throw at me.

I expected shock, followed by anger, then sadness on my father's part. But, I was really in for a surprise...

He told me that it was 'expected', because of certain things.

I'm not going to go into detail what he said, cause it's waaaaaaaay too private for you guys to know ;D.

But overall, I was really surprised at his reaction to what I said, and as I heard him telling me some stuffs, I realized that... I may have really overlooked, and missed out things in my life.

It's part and parcel of life, and you are born to suffer. That's what my father said.

After the long 40 minutes talk, I was planning to continue listening, but...

My sister came into the room! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

"EH! YOU! Disrupt men's talk!" Was my immediate response. Of course, my conversation between my pa and me stopped abruptly, but he knew what I said, I knew what he said.

I told him to just get prepared for this week's review, in case the MO throws any weird questions at him.

However, the very very big thing that I experienced through this conversation was this--

I have grown up.

Yeah, that's for sure. As I listened to him, I realized that it was a suitable age for me to understand everything, and it made complete sense. I definitely have gained more insight from my pa, and I love him lots =).

So, as the time draws near, the end of this blog post draws near too! I think this post was short enough... right? Right? RIGHT?! XD

Today's morning rain seems to have washed off all the scary thoughts I had in mind about confronting my pa and telling him the truth. It was a really peaceful time where I finally felt peace...

NOT!

DARN! I don't think I can relax yet! So many tests coming up, and one just tomorrow! My H3 exam paper is this Saturday! My Maths lecture test is this Thursday! OMG! This week is SO DAMN jam-packed!

But anyway, just to move back on topic, this sudden 'growing up' has made me understand more things, and more determined to conquer this problem once and for all.

For once, I ate in school, using public utensils ;D Although slowly, but I managed to eat! How's that for a start? heh.

So, I'll just end off with this last bit - For anyone with problems currently, sometimes, it's really great to pluck up the courage, approach someone you can talk to and share your problems. You will never know what you can get from this experience. Me, for one, was really enriched by it. It's good to open up once in a while, so that you may just find the way to solve your problem! =) I wish you all the best!

-signs off-