.......Yeah.
Guess it's just as always, where we have to wait for the ISPs to fix up every thing. It's unfortunate such things have to happen though! Does cause a few problems surfing the net at times [or actually, it's been going on for the past few days].
Anyway, just a solution I came across from Twitter (http://twitter.com/search?q=singnet)
Thanks to wongjunhao for this post: Singnet users, if you're having problem with web browsing, use proxy proxy.singnet.com.sg with port 8080...
Shouldn't be hard to do that, right? Unless you don't know how to do all those stuff stated above. It's only a temporary fix, btw. Just wait for the ISPs to fix everything... which they better do!
For the use of proxies... search it yourself =/! This "unable to connect" thing is pissing me off. I'll just leave it at that.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
'Twas The Time of Festivities
Soooo......
Merry Christmas! [Late]
Happy Boxing Day! [Also late]
and a very, very
Happy New Year! [A little early?]
Might as well just do all in one go so that I don't have to do another one. Hmph.
Interesting that the many holidays these few days are making loads of things hyped up, and some die down. At time of writing, it's less than 4 days to 2010!
Guess there's just too many things going on in everyone's world right now! Celebrating on~~
May be early, but..
What's your New Year's Resolution? ;)
Merry Christmas! [Late]
Happy Boxing Day! [Also late]
and a very, very
Happy New Year! [A little early?]
Might as well just do all in one go so that I don't have to do another one. Hmph.
Interesting that the many holidays these few days are making loads of things hyped up, and some die down. At time of writing, it's less than 4 days to 2010!
Guess there's just too many things going on in everyone's world right now! Celebrating on~~
May be early, but..
What's your New Year's Resolution? ;)
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Unanswerable
Whoa, that sure was a strange experience that I just had.
I'll make this quick, my eyes are shutting already.
Why do people do things that they cannot explain later?
Why do people do things, knowing that the end results is not necessarily the best outcome?
Strangely enough, these has happened to me, and just recently, too. It's a weird feeling, but eventually the matter just blows off.
Next up: Are we really as impulsive as we really are?
It really seems that sometimes, just sometimes, people don't seem to be able to control themselves and just fly into a rage after a response, even though there was no hidden intention behind things.
Just like what I had just now, when my response to someone was actually really mild, nothing meant to be offensive, and the other party flies into a rage, asking why my response was so rude.
Imagine my surprise.
Fortunately enough, neither my, nor the other party's went further than that. Not that I would anyway, considering how tough it is to get me angered.
Yet, it sure is very hard to understand some actions done. It sure is intriguing...
I'll make this quick, my eyes are shutting already.
Why do people do things that they cannot explain later?
Why do people do things, knowing that the end results is not necessarily the best outcome?
Strangely enough, these has happened to me, and just recently, too. It's a weird feeling, but eventually the matter just blows off.
Next up: Are we really as impulsive as we really are?
It really seems that sometimes, just sometimes, people don't seem to be able to control themselves and just fly into a rage after a response, even though there was no hidden intention behind things.
Just like what I had just now, when my response to someone was actually really mild, nothing meant to be offensive, and the other party flies into a rage, asking why my response was so rude.
Imagine my surprise.
Fortunately enough, neither my, nor the other party's went further than that. Not that I would anyway, considering how tough it is to get me angered.
Yet, it sure is very hard to understand some actions done. It sure is intriguing...
Sunday, December 6, 2009
One More Candle Is Blown...
And my 18th birthday is past.
How interesting that there has been more surprises in the well wishes I've obtained from people that I never expected?
Moreover, there was blank hope at some areas, and obviously, you can tell how people really are looking at you at that very point.
Of course, it's not like I'm attributing the "I-don't-really-care" attitude to some people, just that I do know some would have. Fact is, some just really don't care.
With the number 18, it's just one more year to go before I really become an "oldie" with no "1" as my starting age. Darn.
Of course, there will always be the wishes that one has, whether it is selfish, or selfless. We'll just have to see if it really happens...
How interesting that there has been more surprises in the well wishes I've obtained from people that I never expected?
Moreover, there was blank hope at some areas, and obviously, you can tell how people really are looking at you at that very point.
Of course, it's not like I'm attributing the "I-don't-really-care" attitude to some people, just that I do know some would have. Fact is, some just really don't care.
With the number 18, it's just one more year to go before I really become an "oldie" with no "1" as my starting age. Darn.
Of course, there will always be the wishes that one has, whether it is selfish, or selfless. We'll just have to see if it really happens...
I am an asshole :)
Caught your attention yet? Great.
Never once have I thought of using something really offensive as my title, but I've done it now. It's time to get down to business.
Having some private time of my own in a shared computer room is great, especially when no one comes to disturb you every now and then. Ah, but I digress. Let's return to topic.
I am here and now, attacking myself in the many ways that I possibly can, because there are reasons to do so.
I have:
- disappointed myself
- disappointed people around me
- kept things the way they have been, when there was need for change
Because of the many things I have really done, it just seems like I should really do a nice punch to my abdomen to wake up.
Sure I have in some ways, but there are just so many other areas that I'm sinking deeper into.
Is seeking assistance a sign of weakness? Or is it a sign of strength?
The many secrets one person hides -- is it really a secret that can be held forever? Or must one reveal it in a way or another as time ticks?
That's just the first part of things for this...
------------------------------------------------------------------------
And part II begins.
Is being unable to completely speak out, a sign of yet another weakness? Or is it just "shyness" on my part?
I would have loved to voice my opinion over various events and things, yet there are so many ways that I find myself hesitating to do so.
Whether it's because I'll hurt someone, I fear that I will hurt someone, or just plainly that it's stupid to voice it out, I have held back the many comments that I could have made.
It seems like this has just led me further into disaster at times, and it may just bring things up a notch for me now.
Why is it that difficult to actually confide in someone very close to you, even when you know that the person can be fully trusted?
Why is it that the person you confide to first, is normally no one that lives among you?
It's better to speak out at times yes? But why is it hard to do so at times?
The many questions that surface just bring me up to yet more problems, that are in need of answering, by someone, somewhere, somehow.
Never once have I thought of using something really offensive as my title, but I've done it now. It's time to get down to business.
Having some private time of my own in a shared computer room is great, especially when no one comes to disturb you every now and then. Ah, but I digress. Let's return to topic.
I am here and now, attacking myself in the many ways that I possibly can, because there are reasons to do so.
I have:
- disappointed myself
- disappointed people around me
- kept things the way they have been, when there was need for change
Because of the many things I have really done, it just seems like I should really do a nice punch to my abdomen to wake up.
Sure I have in some ways, but there are just so many other areas that I'm sinking deeper into.
Is seeking assistance a sign of weakness? Or is it a sign of strength?
The many secrets one person hides -- is it really a secret that can be held forever? Or must one reveal it in a way or another as time ticks?
That's just the first part of things for this...
------------------------------------------------------------------------
And part II begins.
Is being unable to completely speak out, a sign of yet another weakness? Or is it just "shyness" on my part?
I would have loved to voice my opinion over various events and things, yet there are so many ways that I find myself hesitating to do so.
Whether it's because I'll hurt someone, I fear that I will hurt someone, or just plainly that it's stupid to voice it out, I have held back the many comments that I could have made.
It seems like this has just led me further into disaster at times, and it may just bring things up a notch for me now.
Why is it that difficult to actually confide in someone very close to you, even when you know that the person can be fully trusted?
Why is it that the person you confide to first, is normally no one that lives among you?
It's better to speak out at times yes? But why is it hard to do so at times?
The many questions that surface just bring me up to yet more problems, that are in need of answering, by someone, somewhere, somehow.
Only a Matter of Time
"Time is of an essence," is what many people should have heard of.
That's true, we should really treasure each and every moment that we have of our lives, in whatever way we have used it.
The large cauldron of events within just two months of my life have been just a nice load to handle, yet it seems to all just blow past now. Time just goes so quickly, isn't it?
It sure feels like it was March just two days back.
Within the many events, there have been times I needed to just take a breather, yet there were others when I seem to just act on impulse.
Regardless of whichever it was, it seems like time has just provided the opportunities to fix up things I've wanted to fix, and things I've never thought I could have changed.
Some may say that "you cannot turn back certain events," and that's true. Even so, though these things are already etched somewhere, things can still be done. It's just whether you take up that chance, or whether you let it slip past your hands -- just like what I have done several times.
When the 'Golden Time' comes, what is the decision that YOU will make?
That's true, we should really treasure each and every moment that we have of our lives, in whatever way we have used it.
The large cauldron of events within just two months of my life have been just a nice load to handle, yet it seems to all just blow past now. Time just goes so quickly, isn't it?
It sure feels like it was March just two days back.
Within the many events, there have been times I needed to just take a breather, yet there were others when I seem to just act on impulse.
Regardless of whichever it was, it seems like time has just provided the opportunities to fix up things I've wanted to fix, and things I've never thought I could have changed.
Some may say that "you cannot turn back certain events," and that's true. Even so, though these things are already etched somewhere, things can still be done. It's just whether you take up that chance, or whether you let it slip past your hands -- just like what I have done several times.
When the 'Golden Time' comes, what is the decision that YOU will make?
Back to Business
After such a long inactivity, seems like there's much to talk about and catch up on. And I'll begin with the most obvious - A's.
Starting off like an airplane suffering from turbulence, and ending off like a ship reaching it's destination on smooth waters, it just seems like a complete wild ride.
No one expected what could come out, and it definitely was one heck of a nice exam to take.
Surprise, surpr-- no, I shouldn't say that. I wasn't at all surprised at the papers. Neither was I disappointed that what I studied so hard for didn't come out, simply being the fact that you never know what Cambridge is up to these days.
Things going in an unexpected turn is what was the most intense, and yet the most exciting event that could have ever happened.
Things that could be written, has been written.
Things that could be done, has been done.
Things that were not, are just another regret etched into our minds.
But as always, we move on.
Now, the final game begins -- the waiting game.
Starting off like an airplane suffering from turbulence, and ending off like a ship reaching it's destination on smooth waters, it just seems like a complete wild ride.
No one expected what could come out, and it definitely was one heck of a nice exam to take.
Surprise, surpr-- no, I shouldn't say that. I wasn't at all surprised at the papers. Neither was I disappointed that what I studied so hard for didn't come out, simply being the fact that you never know what Cambridge is up to these days.
Things going in an unexpected turn is what was the most intense, and yet the most exciting event that could have ever happened.
Things that could be written, has been written.
Things that could be done, has been done.
Things that were not, are just another regret etched into our minds.
But as always, we move on.
Now, the final game begins -- the waiting game.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Triple Up
3 times the suffering, 3 times the madness.
3 times the fun, 3 times the unexpectedness.
3 times the joy, 3 times the shock.
3 types of styles, 3 ways of handling. Yet were all of them handled well? No one knows... yet.
The final half part of the "game" begins, but it definitely isn't going anywhere easier. What's going to appear next? Only time will tell...
Unleash the inner battle spirit to fight on this battle that no one can turn back on.
Percentage Completion: 33.33%
Percentage Completion: 41.67%
Percentage Completion: 50%
/end
3 times the fun, 3 times the unexpectedness.
3 times the joy, 3 times the shock.
3 types of styles, 3 ways of handling. Yet were all of them handled well? No one knows... yet.
The final half part of the "game" begins, but it definitely isn't going anywhere easier. What's going to appear next? Only time will tell...
Unleash the inner battle spirit to fight on this battle that no one can turn back on.
Percentage Completion: 33.33%
Percentage Completion: 41.67%
Percentage Completion: 50%
/end
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Wrath Down Under
Given a chance to continue on, I grasped that opportunity and rushed towards the next 'stage'.
Being late for the 'stage' is not a good feeling, y'know? Rushing here and there to find out the classroom, seating, etc. Fortunately everything wasn't done yet, and I reached just in time!
Yet the stage was even more difficult then I expected.
Pitfalls, spike traps, crushing words, limited scope. Too many things to consider, too little time.
And a second part to the stage was revealed after, yet it seemed to be equally as bad. Or maybe it was easier, just that I didn't notice.
The most important stage, considerably, over. Yet an uneasy feeling rests on my shoulders as I trudge on towards the bubbling pit in the next stage...
Percentage Completion: 25%
/end
Being late for the 'stage' is not a good feeling, y'know? Rushing here and there to find out the classroom, seating, etc. Fortunately everything wasn't done yet, and I reached just in time!
Yet the stage was even more difficult then I expected.
Pitfalls, spike traps, crushing words, limited scope. Too many things to consider, too little time.
And a second part to the stage was revealed after, yet it seemed to be equally as bad. Or maybe it was easier, just that I didn't notice.
The most important stage, considerably, over. Yet an uneasy feeling rests on my shoulders as I trudge on towards the bubbling pit in the next stage...
Percentage Completion: 25%
/end
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Hell's Gates
The day that everyone is looking toward, or possibly dreaded has come. Hell's Gates finally opens, and the only way out is to find the next exit.
Yet, the entrance to the Gates itself has already unleashed a strong backlash towards many people, and it is definitely getting harder to be able to press on as the days go by.
Everything's on the line now, your face, your work, and your fate. Any thoughts of backtracking will just cause people to get swallowed into the abyss.
The suffering starts now, but will anyone fail to reach the other exit, at the other side?
Step into Hell's Gates, and begin this run for the end... now.
% Completion: 8.33
/end
Yet, the entrance to the Gates itself has already unleashed a strong backlash towards many people, and it is definitely getting harder to be able to press on as the days go by.
Everything's on the line now, your face, your work, and your fate. Any thoughts of backtracking will just cause people to get swallowed into the abyss.
The suffering starts now, but will anyone fail to reach the other exit, at the other side?
Step into Hell's Gates, and begin this run for the end... now.
% Completion: 8.33
/end
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Choices
Given so many, but we limit it to be very little.
Yet these choices are those that pave our way to what happens next, regardless of how long into the future it may be.
It seems as though I have made many wrong choices, and I am still making many more. But with these wrong choices, I pave myself into another alternate path which I may or may not regret.
Are there really such things called "right" and "wrong" choices? Or do we make choices in our subconscious and whatever we do is actually what we have chosen to do at that very point of time?
With the choices I'm making as time ticks ever closer to the opening of Hell's Gate, it seems like many of the choices are just leading me up to the one thing: Suffering.
Hoping it's not true, hoping it won't happen. But it will still happen anyway, and I'll face it with everything I have.
Sidenote: Nice! 11 000 views into my blog this soon! Seems like posting those videos attracted loads of people :P. Will be posting many more in time to come, some old anime and new ones alike! :D
/end
Yet these choices are those that pave our way to what happens next, regardless of how long into the future it may be.
It seems as though I have made many wrong choices, and I am still making many more. But with these wrong choices, I pave myself into another alternate path which I may or may not regret.
Are there really such things called "right" and "wrong" choices? Or do we make choices in our subconscious and whatever we do is actually what we have chosen to do at that very point of time?
With the choices I'm making as time ticks ever closer to the opening of Hell's Gate, it seems like many of the choices are just leading me up to the one thing: Suffering.
Hoping it's not true, hoping it won't happen. But it will still happen anyway, and I'll face it with everything I have.
Sidenote: Nice! 11 000 views into my blog this soon! Seems like posting those videos attracted loads of people :P. Will be posting many more in time to come, some old anime and new ones alike! :D
/end
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Full Metal Alchemist - Brotherhood: OP 3, ED 3 Reposted
Darn, I think I missed out quite a few vids here and there. Here goes!
OP3 Title: Golden Time Lover
Artist: Sukima Switch
ED3 Title: Tsunai Da Te (Translated: Tied Hands)
Artist: Lil'B
Credits of the above titles and singers, as well as the below videos to the respective people who uploaded the songs.
Sukima Switch - Golden Time Lover (ゴールデンタイムラバー) [As seen in the anime. Credits to YukiJudaiJaden.]
Lil'B - Tsunaida Te (つないだ手) [As seen in the anime. Credits to YukiJudaiJaden.]
Surprisingly, the full version of BOTH songs seems to be out. I'm expecting it to be removed very quickly though. Will check back often ;).
Sukima Switch - Golden Time Lover (ゴールデンタイムラバー)(PV) [Volume's quite soft, do turn up your speakers. Credits to officeaugusta.]
Sukima Switch - Golden Time Lover [Alternative version, much louder. Credits to HakuKINkuro.]
Tsunaida Te (つないだ手)- Lil'B (PV) [Well, there's the Romanji, but it's in... Spanish translation, if I'm not wrong. Credits to JDACR.]
Tsunaida Te (つないだ手)- Lil'B [Non-PV, an alternative should the other get removed. This also has the English translation. Credits to HakuKINkuro.]
Some quick comments: I never knew つないだ手 had such a sad story behind it until both the PV and the English translation was noticed by me. It's really touching actually. Along with that, Golden Time Lover definitely fits FMA this time, in loads of ways! ;D
OP3 Title: Golden Time Lover
Artist: Sukima Switch
ED3 Title: Tsunai Da Te (Translated: Tied Hands)
Artist: Lil'B
Credits of the above titles and singers, as well as the below videos to the respective people who uploaded the songs.
Sukima Switch - Golden Time Lover (ゴールデンタイムラバー) [As seen in the anime. Credits to YukiJudaiJaden.]
Lil'B - Tsunaida Te (つないだ手) [As seen in the anime. Credits to YukiJudaiJaden.]
Surprisingly, the full version of BOTH songs seems to be out. I'm expecting it to be removed very quickly though. Will check back often ;).
Sukima Switch - Golden Time Lover (ゴールデンタイムラバー)(PV) [Volume's quite soft, do turn up your speakers. Credits to officeaugusta.]
Sukima Switch - Golden Time Lover [Alternative version, much louder. Credits to HakuKINkuro.]
Tsunaida Te (つないだ手)- Lil'B (PV) [Well, there's the Romanji, but it's in... Spanish translation, if I'm not wrong. Credits to JDACR.]
Tsunaida Te (つないだ手)- Lil'B [Non-PV, an alternative should the other get removed. This also has the English translation. Credits to HakuKINkuro.]
Some quick comments: I never knew つないだ手 had such a sad story behind it until both the PV and the English translation was noticed by me. It's really touching actually. Along with that, Golden Time Lover definitely fits FMA this time, in loads of ways! ;D
Friday, October 16, 2009
Day Zero
And the last day of school is over. Officially, anyway.
Yet, it definitely doesn't feel like that. Things are still shifting around, everyone's still working hard, teacher's are still doing what they can.
There wasn't a feeling of sadness, nor a feeling of happiness when the dismissal bell rang.
The feeling was one, though difficult to detect, but intense. It's that of everyone pushing everyone else on for the next challenge, to get up to the top.
Fatigue, lethargy, sleepiness, though all meaning the same thing, it's everything combined into one within many people now. To push on is like getting to the limits, or surpassing it.
Which is why health is of utmost importance now.
With the last 3 weeks ahead, things don't seem pleasant, but we still push on. Onwards to Day 1, the start of hell.
/end
Yet, it definitely doesn't feel like that. Things are still shifting around, everyone's still working hard, teacher's are still doing what they can.
There wasn't a feeling of sadness, nor a feeling of happiness when the dismissal bell rang.
The feeling was one, though difficult to detect, but intense. It's that of everyone pushing everyone else on for the next challenge, to get up to the top.
Fatigue, lethargy, sleepiness, though all meaning the same thing, it's everything combined into one within many people now. To push on is like getting to the limits, or surpassing it.
Which is why health is of utmost importance now.
With the last 3 weeks ahead, things don't seem pleasant, but we still push on. Onwards to Day 1, the start of hell.
/end
Feathery Week
Hur hur, videos already removed, eh? I'll be adding some back shortly. Let's hope the removal won't be too continuous ._. It's taxing to keep changing links!
On to today's stuff. Or maybe I should say, this WEEK'S stuff.
I feel like I'm turning into a carnivore :o Okay, not that serious per se, but it's more of my meals I've had over the past week. It's feathery, I tell you!
Sunday: Curry Chicken
Monday: Steamed Chicken + KFC
Tuesday: Roast Chicken + Chicken Burger
Wednesday: Some noodles that had hot dog (chicken meat) in it
Thursday: More hot dog stuffs, this time with rice
Friday: Curry Chicken.. again O_o
See where I'm heading towards? I'm turning into a chicken if this continues! :O!
I need to cut down... cut down... before feathers start poking out of my skin! ><
/end
On to today's stuff. Or maybe I should say, this WEEK'S stuff.
I feel like I'm turning into a carnivore :o Okay, not that serious per se, but it's more of my meals I've had over the past week. It's feathery, I tell you!
Sunday: Curry Chicken
Monday: Steamed Chicken + KFC
Tuesday: Roast Chicken + Chicken Burger
Wednesday: Some noodles that had hot dog (chicken meat) in it
Thursday: More hot dog stuffs, this time with rice
Friday: Curry Chicken.. again O_o
See where I'm heading towards? I'm turning into a chicken if this continues! :O!
I need to cut down... cut down... before feathers start poking out of my skin! ><
/end
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Future in the Present
With reference to one of the newest shows, Flash Forward, of course.
What happens when you know your future?
Is any vision that you see really a gift, or is it just a curse to you?
Will you try to avert that very incident from happening if you know it will happen soon?
What if what you do actually leads you to that very incident itself?
What is your ultimate choice?
Will you continue to move forward when you know what happens?
Is there really something you can do -- to change the future?
Things to ponder about, but it seems relevant enough in the present to think about this. What the future entails, no one knows... yet.
/end
What happens when you know your future?
Is any vision that you see really a gift, or is it just a curse to you?
Will you try to avert that very incident from happening if you know it will happen soon?
What if what you do actually leads you to that very incident itself?
What is your ultimate choice?
Will you continue to move forward when you know what happens?
Is there really something you can do -- to change the future?
Things to ponder about, but it seems relevant enough in the present to think about this. What the future entails, no one knows... yet.
/end
Monday, October 12, 2009
Double Up
Second consecutive post in a span of less than 10 minutes.
I'll keep it short, considering how 'long' my other entry was.
Just a song that I do recall posting, but I decided to post it again. It's a favorite song of mine, you see ;).
Title: Turn Back Time
Artist: Aqua
The original PV [Sound volume is slightly low]
or the louder version (but the sound quality is, uh, a little shaky..). Your choice.
/end
I'll keep it short, considering how 'long' my other entry was.
Just a song that I do recall posting, but I decided to post it again. It's a favorite song of mine, you see ;).
Title: Turn Back Time
Artist: Aqua
The original PV [Sound volume is slightly low]
or the louder version (but the sound quality is, uh, a little shaky..). Your choice.
/end
That's How It Is
One last week, eh? Everything is slowly being pieced up, yet the worries still remain that I won't be able to complete my revision on time, which I hope I do, obviously.
Hm. It was really interesting today, though. Starting off very upbeat, then slowly moving downhill till now I don't really feel much, at all.
Worse, is that I have a pile of things in my schedule left undone.
But off from that, I'm on to something else.
People experience many things around them, and no one is an exception. While we try to do our best in many things, there are always those areas where we will definitely miss out on, or fail to get it done well.
It works the same way with people, really. You cannot get the attention of everyone, neither will you get no attention at all. There will always be that one person at least, looking/thinking about you, be it something nasty or good, from the distance...
So, you cannot aim to satisfy everyone. And neither will I do that. It's not in my will to do so, and I don't wish to force ahead, cause it's pointless. Happiness cannot be forced ;).
At the least though, I've gone through much, much more than I've expected in the past 2 years, which is about to come to a resounding end. Of course, even up till now, it's not like I manage to get to know everyone, but I at the least, knew a few who I could depend on, or speak to.
Things just seem to revolve so fast in the coming 20+ days that everything is just in a whirl. And it is in this moment that people need to learn how to relax.
How do they do that? It's really dependent on self, really. My method wouldn't fit some, yet it may be the perfect solution for others. But ultimately, the source of relaxation, and the decision to relax, how long to relax, all lies on you.
That's how it is.
/end
Hm. It was really interesting today, though. Starting off very upbeat, then slowly moving downhill till now I don't really feel much, at all.
Worse, is that I have a pile of things in my schedule left undone.
But off from that, I'm on to something else.
People experience many things around them, and no one is an exception. While we try to do our best in many things, there are always those areas where we will definitely miss out on, or fail to get it done well.
It works the same way with people, really. You cannot get the attention of everyone, neither will you get no attention at all. There will always be that one person at least, looking/thinking about you, be it something nasty or good, from the distance...
So, you cannot aim to satisfy everyone. And neither will I do that. It's not in my will to do so, and I don't wish to force ahead, cause it's pointless. Happiness cannot be forced ;).
At the least though, I've gone through much, much more than I've expected in the past 2 years, which is about to come to a resounding end. Of course, even up till now, it's not like I manage to get to know everyone, but I at the least, knew a few who I could depend on, or speak to.
Things just seem to revolve so fast in the coming 20+ days that everything is just in a whirl. And it is in this moment that people need to learn how to relax.
How do they do that? It's really dependent on self, really. My method wouldn't fit some, yet it may be the perfect solution for others. But ultimately, the source of relaxation, and the decision to relax, how long to relax, all lies on you.
That's how it is.
/end
Saturday, October 10, 2009
And Your Name Is...
It's interesting to see the Japanese words up there now. I got a surprise myself when I actually saw it :P.
Anyway, I'll do a quick one now. I just did an anagram of my name, following a friend of mine who posted his own name anagram. It seemed interesting so I tried it but I never expected the results I got..
Here are the 3 anagrams I got, using 3 different names:
hence gang nut
hung acne
change nut
I don't know if I should laugh or scream in agony, really. I HAVE A HUNG ACNE!?
Anyway, for those who have a Facebook account, the link to the anagram is here:
http://apps.facebook.com/getanagram/?full_name=________________
Fill in your desired name in the underline above. If you have spacing between your name, add a + for each spacing.
Eg: John Doe - the link will read http://apps.facebook.com/getanagram/?full_name=John+Doe
Eg: What The Hell - the link will read http://apps.facebook.com/getanagram/?full_name=What+The+Hell
Simple!
So, what's YOUR name?
/end
Anyway, I'll do a quick one now. I just did an anagram of my name, following a friend of mine who posted his own name anagram. It seemed interesting so I tried it but I never expected the results I got..
Here are the 3 anagrams I got, using 3 different names:
hence gang nut
hung acne
change nut
I don't know if I should laugh or scream in agony, really. I HAVE A HUNG ACNE!?
Anyway, for those who have a Facebook account, the link to the anagram is here:
http://apps.facebook.com/getanagram/?full_name=________________
Fill in your desired name in the underline above. If you have spacing between your name, add a + for each spacing.
Eg: John Doe - the link will read http://apps.facebook.com/getanagram/?full_name=John+Doe
Eg: What The Hell - the link will read http://apps.facebook.com/getanagram/?full_name=What+The+Hell
Simple!
So, what's YOUR name?
/end
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
2 Weeks of Mayhem
Down to the final 2 weeks before J2s are officially gone from school and off to their study break, prepping for that one exam.
I can't rely on that weird "Number of Days Left to A's" near the school gate, it's too unreliable. First I see 33, then the next day I see 24? What the hell is that?
But anyway, it's interesting to see small things changing within school. Even better now is that everyone is in the mugging mood. That puts me in the mugging mood, too ;D.
The competitive atmosphere can be felt from lots of places, yet in the midst of it, everyone tries to keep their cool, adding on jokes, keeping spirits high. That's what everyone needs now -- laughter.
The stressful period has taken a toll on some people, from what I've seen, so it's most crucial everyone takes care of their health. Let this feeling rage on and everyone will push ahead towards the gates of hell, beginning Nov. 10th. That's when it starts, right? I can't remember.
If it does, that day is of even more significance to me. It sucks to have my sister's birthday falling right on the first day of exam. Oh well, I feel for those whose birthdays actually fall within the period of time of our A's. Should they feel stressed/anxious for the coming paper, or should they enjoy themselves on that special day? Tough decisions.
Right, off from that really awkward start of the post, I'll just head right into some other 'minor' stuffs.
First up, maybe anyone who still bothers reading my blog, which I oh so have not updated for ages, will notice that the blog name has changed..slightly.* It's just part of what I'm doing to fit my style of the blog, nothing big really, but it is sort of important to me ;).
Next is that if anything fictitious ever appears on the blog, read it as though it was really from a blog post of sorts. If I do have the time, I may just embark on something really interesting :P. It's fictitious, obviously! If I do start an introduction on this all of you will notice it ;).
Lastly is that I realized I haven't posted any of those "inspiring lines" I mentioned some time back. Eheh, I forgot about it :P Sorry! I'll get to it when I can, though. When I mean inspiring, it not necessarily is a boost of morale for A's, oh no. It's just some things in common life that would be useful, I suppose :).
Been a long post, I'll end off here.
/end
I can't rely on that weird "Number of Days Left to A's" near the school gate, it's too unreliable. First I see 33, then the next day I see 24? What the hell is that?
But anyway, it's interesting to see small things changing within school. Even better now is that everyone is in the mugging mood. That puts me in the mugging mood, too ;D.
The competitive atmosphere can be felt from lots of places, yet in the midst of it, everyone tries to keep their cool, adding on jokes, keeping spirits high. That's what everyone needs now -- laughter.
The stressful period has taken a toll on some people, from what I've seen, so it's most crucial everyone takes care of their health. Let this feeling rage on and everyone will push ahead towards the gates of hell, beginning Nov. 10th. That's when it starts, right? I can't remember.
If it does, that day is of even more significance to me. It sucks to have my sister's birthday falling right on the first day of exam. Oh well, I feel for those whose birthdays actually fall within the period of time of our A's. Should they feel stressed/anxious for the coming paper, or should they enjoy themselves on that special day? Tough decisions.
Right, off from that really awkward start of the post, I'll just head right into some other 'minor' stuffs.
First up, maybe anyone who still bothers reading my blog, which I oh so have not updated for ages, will notice that the blog name has changed..slightly.* It's just part of what I'm doing to fit my style of the blog, nothing big really, but it is sort of important to me ;).
Next is that if anything fictitious ever appears on the blog, read it as though it was really from a blog post of sorts. If I do have the time, I may just embark on something really interesting :P. It's fictitious, obviously! If I do start an introduction on this all of you will notice it ;).
Lastly is that I realized I haven't posted any of those "inspiring lines" I mentioned some time back. Eheh, I forgot about it :P Sorry! I'll get to it when I can, though. When I mean inspiring, it not necessarily is a boost of morale for A's, oh no. It's just some things in common life that would be useful, I suppose :).
Been a long post, I'll end off here.
/end
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Southern Sumatra Earthquake
For those of you who didn't know, it occurred just a few hours back, at ~6:30pm, GMT+8.
I actually don't post this kind of things, because they are really common and happen umpteen times a year. But this time it was an incident that was really interesting, which is why I had to post this.
First up, was that I was at home, using the computer [as always], when the tremor occurred.
I was busily doing stuff when the most interesting feeling came to me.
My chair [yes, my chair] literally started jumping. Of course it's not to the extent of a human jump >_> If not that would be something paranormal already. It was just some slight bumps that I could feel when sitting down.
So I thought it wasn't anything for the first 10 seconds, cause it didn't seem to be really serious.
But then the sensation lasted for.. what, 45 seconds or so? Or maybe even more than that. That was when I got real suspicious and began checking around for anything that was shaking and all.
Too bad ._., anything around me is paper, and I didn't bother checking a water bottle beside me during the tremor, so I just went to inform my sister [lying on the bed], who commented it could have been construction works near my block. I took it as it is, since the feeling ended when I returned to my chair again.
But at the time of posting, I found a thread mentioning about such an earthquake. Interesting isn't it? Seems like my senses are still pretty sharp after all, uhuhu.
That's actually the very first time I felt a tremor so strong from where I stayed, since tremors from the quake rarely strikes the area where I live. This must have been one strong quake.. 7.9 in magnitude, actually. Really big IMO.
No giddiness though, must be because I was seated throughout the whole tremor.
So, did you feel it too?
/end
I actually don't post this kind of things, because they are really common and happen umpteen times a year. But this time it was an incident that was really interesting, which is why I had to post this.
First up, was that I was at home, using the computer [as always], when the tremor occurred.
I was busily doing stuff when the most interesting feeling came to me.
My chair [yes, my chair] literally started jumping. Of course it's not to the extent of a human jump >_> If not that would be something paranormal already. It was just some slight bumps that I could feel when sitting down.
So I thought it wasn't anything for the first 10 seconds, cause it didn't seem to be really serious.
But then the sensation lasted for.. what, 45 seconds or so? Or maybe even more than that. That was when I got real suspicious and began checking around for anything that was shaking and all.
Too bad ._., anything around me is paper, and I didn't bother checking a water bottle beside me during the tremor, so I just went to inform my sister [lying on the bed], who commented it could have been construction works near my block. I took it as it is, since the feeling ended when I returned to my chair again.
But at the time of posting, I found a thread mentioning about such an earthquake. Interesting isn't it? Seems like my senses are still pretty sharp after all, uhuhu.
That's actually the very first time I felt a tremor so strong from where I stayed, since tremors from the quake rarely strikes the area where I live. This must have been one strong quake.. 7.9 in magnitude, actually. Really big IMO.
No giddiness though, must be because I was seated throughout the whole tremor.
So, did you feel it too?
/end
Monday, September 28, 2009
You're Already Gone
I suddenly thought of sharing this song.
It comes from Audition, an online dancing game. It's English so.. yay? Finally something that the general population understands from all the songs I've posted so far!
Without further ado:
Lyrics are actually in the video itself already, but for the very lazy folks--
Do-
You like the way it feels
When nobody will reply-
To your questions
Do-
You like the way it feels
Whenever you ignore me
Makes me wild, makes me crazy
I-
Don't like the things you do
Don't like what you become
Don't like what you do to me
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
You-
You think you know it all
You think you hold the key to life
And it's questions
But you-
You've got a lot to learn
Stop thinking of yourself
You're making me lose my head
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
It ain't a problem
It's my job son
Sweep the streets clean
Mix it up keep it mean
Best players in the frame up in the game
Think it's gonna change but it's still the same uh-
Still my pop caps the rocks-
Holds the pipsqueaks in smoky rocks
(you're already gone)
There's always time to fall on their face what-
Only someones will erase- yeah
You might think that you can hunt me down
Steal my jewels uh-
Wear my frown
But in the end yo-
Find the funk
Smoked out placed down in my trunk
If you'd all move to my plan
Things will work out fine-
Turn out grand
If everything works to my design
We all gonna be down and it's still all mine
I-
Can't take you anymore
Can't take the way you treated me
You make me crawl
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me all alone
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already-
You're already-
You're already gone
You're already-
You're already-
You're already gone
You're already gone
Lyrics credits to: http://www.lyricstime.com/audition-you-re-already-gone-lyrics.html
It comes from Audition, an online dancing game. It's English so.. yay? Finally something that the general population understands from all the songs I've posted so far!
Without further ado:
Lyrics are actually in the video itself already, but for the very lazy folks--
Do-
You like the way it feels
When nobody will reply-
To your questions
Do-
You like the way it feels
Whenever you ignore me
Makes me wild, makes me crazy
I-
Don't like the things you do
Don't like what you become
Don't like what you do to me
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
You-
You think you know it all
You think you hold the key to life
And it's questions
But you-
You've got a lot to learn
Stop thinking of yourself
You're making me lose my head
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
It ain't a problem
It's my job son
Sweep the streets clean
Mix it up keep it mean
Best players in the frame up in the game
Think it's gonna change but it's still the same uh-
Still my pop caps the rocks-
Holds the pipsqueaks in smoky rocks
(you're already gone)
There's always time to fall on their face what-
Only someones will erase- yeah
You might think that you can hunt me down
Steal my jewels uh-
Wear my frown
But in the end yo-
Find the funk
Smoked out placed down in my trunk
If you'd all move to my plan
Things will work out fine-
Turn out grand
If everything works to my design
We all gonna be down and it's still all mine
I-
Can't take you anymore
Can't take the way you treated me
You make me crawl
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me all alone
Even though you're next to me
You're already gone
Feels so far away
Left me on my own
Even though you're next to me
You're already-
You're already-
You're already gone
You're already-
You're already-
You're already gone
You're already gone
Lyrics credits to: http://www.lyricstime.com/audition-you-re-already-gone-lyrics.html
Reflections XV - Adrenaline
Less than 6 weeks to go, if I'm not wrong. Interesting how time flies so fast.
That would mean that A's are literally "round the corner". Not a nice feeling to be so pumped up, but I'm pretty glad that I actually am that pumped up!
Gaming time, at the very least is reduced significantly, or from what I'm seeing anyway. At least I'm not getting stuck on the game for ages on and still not getting down to business and study.
It's an interesting way to reflect on what I've been doing for many years now, pretty much gaming.. gaming.. gaming.
It's a weird way to notice something like that. But unfortunately, I discovered that cyber gaming is NOT my true addiction, computer addiction is.
Notice the difference yet? I think I mentioned this sometime back too.
That would pretty much mean my electricity bills will remain high as ever..................... ._.! Or maybe not?
Things are progressing so quickly, things are just coming one after another that sometimes it's really hard to not get lost in a sea of things to do. And at the same time, it's because of this that the confusion just leads to people falling ill, like what I think is going to happen to me in a few hours......
Beginning to feel a very tight sensation in my throat currently when I swallow, so it seems like a bad sign already. Fortunately I have Chinese herbs ready and beside me! Ehehe!
Time for me to dig up some interesting quotes from some manga I've read! These may just be the source of motivation for me ;). But first, to be able to find and compile them......
/end
That would mean that A's are literally "round the corner". Not a nice feeling to be so pumped up, but I'm pretty glad that I actually am that pumped up!
Gaming time, at the very least is reduced significantly, or from what I'm seeing anyway. At least I'm not getting stuck on the game for ages on and still not getting down to business and study.
It's an interesting way to reflect on what I've been doing for many years now, pretty much gaming.. gaming.. gaming.
It's a weird way to notice something like that. But unfortunately, I discovered that cyber gaming is NOT my true addiction, computer addiction is.
Notice the difference yet? I think I mentioned this sometime back too.
That would pretty much mean my electricity bills will remain high as ever..................... ._.! Or maybe not?
Things are progressing so quickly, things are just coming one after another that sometimes it's really hard to not get lost in a sea of things to do. And at the same time, it's because of this that the confusion just leads to people falling ill, like what I think is going to happen to me in a few hours......
Beginning to feel a very tight sensation in my throat currently when I swallow, so it seems like a bad sign already. Fortunately I have Chinese herbs ready and beside me! Ehehe!
Time for me to dig up some interesting quotes from some manga I've read! These may just be the source of motivation for me ;). But first, to be able to find and compile them......
/end
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Brain Juice Draining
Studying really does that isn't it? My brain can shut down for some moments now >.>! Must be getting tired from all the studying.
So many things going on now, results are all back, not wonderful, not pathetic either. At least it's "so-so"! :) But that's not what I'll aim for when the time comes for the actual thing!
I seem to fall asleep more easily now :P, must be all the studying taking up my energy! At least my "insomnia" isn't really coming back for now~
Just 4 to 5 weeks left, the pieces are set into motion for that final checkpoint...
/end
So many things going on now, results are all back, not wonderful, not pathetic either. At least it's "so-so"! :) But that's not what I'll aim for when the time comes for the actual thing!
I seem to fall asleep more easily now :P, must be all the studying taking up my energy! At least my "insomnia" isn't really coming back for now~
Just 4 to 5 weeks left, the pieces are set into motion for that final checkpoint...
/end
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Switch
New term's started, everything's back in full swing. Especially studies, of course.
Seems like all the teachers are equally, if not more, stressed out then us students o_o. It's interesting to know how fast things are moving now though.
Or maybe I was just too slow to notice. At least now thing's are transiting to the next phase for me, getting on to study. Been ages since I've touched my notes really.
Interestingly, the moment I start, it seems as if the word 'stress' returned. Maybe it was always there, just that I never noticed it till now.
Worse is the fact that I'm sleeping more >_>, or is that a good thing? I do need quite some rest now...
It's really amazing to see how fast I switched from my gaming self to a 'more' hardworking self. Gaming time reduced to nearly zilch from ~8 hours a day. But my computer is still on always ~_~. Seems like I have a computer addiction more than a gaming one! hahaha!
P.S. My video entry on the game won! :o One of the 10 winners this time, yay! \o/!
Seems like all the teachers are equally, if not more, stressed out then us students o_o. It's interesting to know how fast things are moving now though.
Or maybe I was just too slow to notice. At least now thing's are transiting to the next phase for me, getting on to study. Been ages since I've touched my notes really.
Interestingly, the moment I start, it seems as if the word 'stress' returned. Maybe it was always there, just that I never noticed it till now.
Worse is the fact that I'm sleeping more >_>, or is that a good thing? I do need quite some rest now...
It's really amazing to see how fast I switched from my gaming self to a 'more' hardworking self. Gaming time reduced to nearly zilch from ~8 hours a day. But my computer is still on always ~_~. Seems like I have a computer addiction more than a gaming one! hahaha!
P.S. My video entry on the game won! :o One of the 10 winners this time, yay! \o/!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
O-MAI-GAWD?!
It's finally fixed! :O
Blogger's finally showing up right for me! YEAH! NO MORE WEIRD SCRIPTING ERRORS~
Time to move on to the next thing.
People change.
Feelings change.
Actions change.
Everything changes.
However, one thing that doesn't change, is the emotions stemming from the heart. The most important of all things, as it's where one should, and will look to.
It's always interesting to search our souls for what is really the "true 'me'", if you understand what I mean.
When we change, we know it, or do we? It's interesting that not everything can be instantaneously felt, but if you look hard enough, you may just notice.
/end
Blogger's finally showing up right for me! YEAH! NO MORE WEIRD SCRIPTING ERRORS~
Time to move on to the next thing.
People change.
Feelings change.
Actions change.
Everything changes.
However, one thing that doesn't change, is the emotions stemming from the heart. The most important of all things, as it's where one should, and will look to.
It's always interesting to search our souls for what is really the "true 'me'", if you understand what I mean.
When we change, we know it, or do we? It's interesting that not everything can be instantaneously felt, but if you look hard enough, you may just notice.
/end
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Reflections XIV - There's A First Time For Everything
...Including making a video.
Yes, I have made a video. Yes, it's uploaded.
No, my voice is not in there.
Yes, it's on a game.
No, I can't embed it... yet. Wait for the processing to finish.
I'll just edit this post once the processing is done. Shouldn't take too long.
Well, I think I'll just post certain things about my video only after I have my video embedded. Watch this space.
Oh. Processing was pretty quick, yay :). Here's the video.
Now, on to comments. You can read some of them if you want to in the YouTube post itself [double click the video].
First up, I must say, video making is hard work! O_O Even if it's just simple things such as what you saw above. [Or maybe it's not so simple ~_~]
Second, no matter how hard it was, I found the process very very interesting, and fun of course. I think it was one of the times I had so much fun!
Third, video creations can really cause you to go whack. Especially if you are not careful. Here's just some problems I encountered:
- Forgot to switch on the sound recording when I was supposed to
- Choosing the BEST video out of all good videos I've taken
- Having perfect synchronicity [I'm sorta perfectionist, y'know?]
Heck, even credit making was funny! I had to think of what I had to put, and even when I did, sometimes it couldn't fit the limited time I had left for the video.
Fortunately there's always ways around it ;). Guess it's always best to 'explore', eh? I've definitely learned lots from this, and this could just be my very first, paving on to many more...
/end
Yes, I have made a video. Yes, it's uploaded.
No, my voice is not in there.
Yes, it's on a game.
No, I can't embed it... yet. Wait for the processing to finish.
I'll just edit this post once the processing is done. Shouldn't take too long.
Well, I think I'll just post certain things about my video only after I have my video embedded. Watch this space.
Oh. Processing was pretty quick, yay :). Here's the video.
Now, on to comments. You can read some of them if you want to in the YouTube post itself [double click the video].
First up, I must say, video making is hard work! O_O Even if it's just simple things such as what you saw above. [Or maybe it's not so simple ~_~]
Second, no matter how hard it was, I found the process very very interesting, and fun of course. I think it was one of the times I had so much fun!
Third, video creations can really cause you to go whack. Especially if you are not careful. Here's just some problems I encountered:
- Forgot to switch on the sound recording when I was supposed to
- Choosing the BEST video out of all good videos I've taken
- Having perfect synchronicity [I'm sorta perfectionist, y'know?]
Heck, even credit making was funny! I had to think of what I had to put, and even when I did, sometimes it couldn't fit the limited time I had left for the video.
Fortunately there's always ways around it ;). Guess it's always best to 'explore', eh? I've definitely learned lots from this, and this could just be my very first, paving on to many more...
/end
Ulcers
Yeah, made a post about it before. I'll be quick on this.
Firstly, I want to punch myself in the face for accidentally scratching my OWN gum a few days back.
Secondly, I can't believe that my teeth managed to sink in 2 cuts at the lips region just less than 0.5mm apart.
Thirdly, both incidents happened within 48 hours, and now I have 3 ulcers in my mouth >_>. New record, much?
The ulcers that are very close to each other have developed to a very strange extent. It's like... the ulcer closer to my teeth is WRAPPING around the other ulcer. And it looks seriously weird, plus irritating of course. Having troubles eating properly ._. Fortunately, it's only 1 side of the mouth so I can depend on the other for now...
Can't believe I woke up so early. Heck, I think I didn't even sleep. Not sure why. Seems like a bi-monthly thing? Gets on my nerves at times.
I've learned a few things from this incident: BE CAREFUL WHEN EATING >_>! But I think no matter how careful I am, I'll still bite myself one way or the other. cheh!
/end
Firstly, I want to punch myself in the face for accidentally scratching my OWN gum a few days back.
Secondly, I can't believe that my teeth managed to sink in 2 cuts at the lips region just less than 0.5mm apart.
Thirdly, both incidents happened within 48 hours, and now I have 3 ulcers in my mouth >_>. New record, much?
The ulcers that are very close to each other have developed to a very strange extent. It's like... the ulcer closer to my teeth is WRAPPING around the other ulcer. And it looks seriously weird, plus irritating of course. Having troubles eating properly ._. Fortunately, it's only 1 side of the mouth so I can depend on the other for now...
Can't believe I woke up so early. Heck, I think I didn't even sleep. Not sure why. Seems like a bi-monthly thing? Gets on my nerves at times.
I've learned a few things from this incident: BE CAREFUL WHEN EATING >_>! But I think no matter how careful I am, I'll still bite myself one way or the other. cheh!
/end
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Sleep
...is heavenly. :)
Yes, really. But I never expected myself to sleep like 13 hours even though I slept at 11pm.
That was really weird, and really rare.
Normally, this happens only if I sleep at 2, 3am. Which happens often.
But this time it's just plain weird O_o.
Sleeping at 11, I should wake up at 7. That's how my body works :P so... it's really weird to see myself wake up at 12pm the next day.
But remember, the best thing in life is... SLEEP! XD
Yes, really. But I never expected myself to sleep like 13 hours even though I slept at 11pm.
That was really weird, and really rare.
Normally, this happens only if I sleep at 2, 3am. Which happens often.
But this time it's just plain weird O_o.
Sleeping at 11, I should wake up at 7. That's how my body works :P so... it's really weird to see myself wake up at 12pm the next day.
But remember, the best thing in life is... SLEEP! XD
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Reflections XIII - The Line Between Life and Death
Hurray!!! --not. Seems like Blogger's still working up for me.
Right, this took some time for me to post, but... I dunno, just wanted to share.
This is a long post, set aside some time. But I think any loyal readers would find this post... interesting.
As followers of my blog would know, I'm a home-stayer. A regular one at that. Or maybe VIP? Just kidding.
But on Saturday [that's 29 August], I went out with my sibling to help her with her research. Took the train, as always for any of those verrrrrrrry long trips. I thought it would just be 'normal', like how I would have been on normal train rides.
I never expected what was to come next.
Midway through the ride, I felt a little blood rush, like when you suddenly stand up from a lying position and get that blood rushing from your brain. That kind of feeling. I thought it was nothing, and just continued standing with my sibling. [The train is packed ._.]
Then, just when it moved towards Redhill, I realized that things were definitely not going right.
My head started acting up, I could still feel the blood rush even after a few minutes. My eyes started to see everything in the surrounding as 'glowing', and I definitely felt as if I was in midair, close to floating.
Along with that, breaking into cold sweat, panicking and obviously, problems breathing. I never felt this before, and I had to find a way to fix it on the spot, as soon as I can before I collapse on the train cabin.
So I told my sibling, which didn't really take heed at the start when I said that my head feels weird, that we had to get off the train in the next station [even though we hadn't reached the destination yet].
This feeling lasted for I believe, a whole 10 minutes. That 10 minutes was the worst experience I've had in my life, and I definitely don't want a re-attack.
So we got off the train, I had to use my sibling's shoulder as a guide cause my eyes were getting way too blurry to see anything now, and I rushed to a corner and sat on the floor. Too bad there wasn't a chair or something, so my sitting there would've caught a little bit of attention.
Fortunately I didn't collapse, and everything returned to normal after sitting there for 3 minutes or so.
And then the comment from my sibling came: "Only people with anaemia would get this attack."
My sibling never saw me having this attack before [cause I rarely went out!] but at least there wasn't too much panic on either party [me and my sibling].
After that I decided to just continue with the journey since everything felt much better.
"See! Lack exercise la! Tell you to go exercise more often liao!" was the next comment on the train.
I laughed it off, but obviously that comment stayed in my mind.
Got some chocs once we reached the destination, since my sibling said "You need more blood sugar". I'm not sure if glucose helps in fixing low blood count, though.
Once my sibling's research was done and we were home, I decided to ask my father whether I had anaemia, which he said he didn't think so. Not that I was diagnosed as a baby to have the problem anyway. He commented "probably low blood sugar", and so I took it as that. Didn't tell him about the incident so that I wouldn't cause too much alarm.
The saying "Once bitten, twice shy" seems to have problems taking effect on me. I'll have to get the "twice shy" part to work using my own methods.
Figures, this is the very first time I'm experiencing it, and I can definitely attribute this to my daily lifestyle. It's a signal already, and I know it is, yet it's hard to knock my senses into telling me to change my habits. /sarcastic laugh
When do I take things 'overboard'? Will all these turn into an even worse disaster than what I experienced? I definitely don't want to get that feeling once more.
Now I know the feeling right before fainting, and it is that of death. Very scary, very painful [to the mind].
Where change is needed, the person resistant to change has just added an additional 'steel shield' against change. Or has he just broken through one of those 'shields' to allow change to creep in?
September 1st, and the time ticks onward to A' Levels...
/end post
Right, this took some time for me to post, but... I dunno, just wanted to share.
This is a long post, set aside some time. But I think any loyal readers would find this post... interesting.
As followers of my blog would know, I'm a home-stayer. A regular one at that. Or maybe VIP? Just kidding.
But on Saturday [that's 29 August], I went out with my sibling to help her with her research. Took the train, as always for any of those verrrrrrrry long trips. I thought it would just be 'normal', like how I would have been on normal train rides.
I never expected what was to come next.
Midway through the ride, I felt a little blood rush, like when you suddenly stand up from a lying position and get that blood rushing from your brain. That kind of feeling. I thought it was nothing, and just continued standing with my sibling. [The train is packed ._.]
Then, just when it moved towards Redhill, I realized that things were definitely not going right.
My head started acting up, I could still feel the blood rush even after a few minutes. My eyes started to see everything in the surrounding as 'glowing', and I definitely felt as if I was in midair, close to floating.
Along with that, breaking into cold sweat, panicking and obviously, problems breathing. I never felt this before, and I had to find a way to fix it on the spot, as soon as I can before I collapse on the train cabin.
So I told my sibling, which didn't really take heed at the start when I said that my head feels weird, that we had to get off the train in the next station [even though we hadn't reached the destination yet].
This feeling lasted for I believe, a whole 10 minutes. That 10 minutes was the worst experience I've had in my life, and I definitely don't want a re-attack.
So we got off the train, I had to use my sibling's shoulder as a guide cause my eyes were getting way too blurry to see anything now, and I rushed to a corner and sat on the floor. Too bad there wasn't a chair or something, so my sitting there would've caught a little bit of attention.
Fortunately I didn't collapse, and everything returned to normal after sitting there for 3 minutes or so.
And then the comment from my sibling came: "Only people with anaemia would get this attack."
My sibling never saw me having this attack before [cause I rarely went out!] but at least there wasn't too much panic on either party [me and my sibling].
After that I decided to just continue with the journey since everything felt much better.
"See! Lack exercise la! Tell you to go exercise more often liao!" was the next comment on the train.
I laughed it off, but obviously that comment stayed in my mind.
Got some chocs once we reached the destination, since my sibling said "You need more blood sugar". I'm not sure if glucose helps in fixing low blood count, though.
Once my sibling's research was done and we were home, I decided to ask my father whether I had anaemia, which he said he didn't think so. Not that I was diagnosed as a baby to have the problem anyway. He commented "probably low blood sugar", and so I took it as that. Didn't tell him about the incident so that I wouldn't cause too much alarm.
The saying "Once bitten, twice shy" seems to have problems taking effect on me. I'll have to get the "twice shy" part to work using my own methods.
Figures, this is the very first time I'm experiencing it, and I can definitely attribute this to my daily lifestyle. It's a signal already, and I know it is, yet it's hard to knock my senses into telling me to change my habits. /sarcastic laugh
When do I take things 'overboard'? Will all these turn into an even worse disaster than what I experienced? I definitely don't want to get that feeling once more.
Now I know the feeling right before fainting, and it is that of death. Very scary, very painful [to the mind].
Where change is needed, the person resistant to change has just added an additional 'steel shield' against change. Or has he just broken through one of those 'shields' to allow change to creep in?
September 1st, and the time ticks onward to A' Levels...
/end post
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Motherload
Third post for the day already :o.
I know I should be studying but... well, I was playing this game :P. It's from Miniclip, the title's Motherload.
To put the storyline short, you are a drilling machine and have been tasked by Mr. Natas to excavate gems of many kinds in another planet. All stores available are mechanized/computerized as the planet itself is uninhabited. As you excavate down, Mr. Natas sends a few transmission messages to you. However, as you excavate deeper, mysterious things begin to happen...
And yes, it is MYSTERIOUS. You will never expect what happens until the end. I advise to play this game during the mid-afternoon/early evening cause you may receive too many goosebumps while playing. There are NO ghosts/freaky stuff at all, other than explosions [made by you or...], but what is transmitted to you is the one that spooked me out.
Even as I'm typing this, I still have a little bit of goosebumps here and there from what I just played.
Here's the link to the game [from Miniclip games]: http://www.miniclip.com/games/motherload/en/ (copy paste the link)
This game is NOT meant to be played in one go, you should save the game [there's a save point at the surface] and return when you have the time.
This is the first time I've played it till the end, most of the other times I just ended it prematurely without saving, and I had to restart ._. I was bored a few days back and started it again...
Well, here's a few pictures of what you can expect AT THE END... But be warned, things in the game are not what it seems...
Yup, that's the end of the game, and it definitely was a full-of-goosebumps game for me. Maybe I get spooked too easily.
Anyway, just a final tip before I end: Should you wish to play the game, and reach that area, you may want to prepare yourself with... literally, hundreds of plastic explosives, and hundreds of repair bots. Okay, maybe not like 400 or something, 100 to 200 will do if you're careful.
The boss HURTS, you need to watch out. Your plastic explosives also have a small range of attack only, so use it wisely... [you will need to be nearly touching it for the blast to hit it]
That's all from me, enjoy this game if you would :).
/end post
I know I should be studying but... well, I was playing this game :P. It's from Miniclip, the title's Motherload.
To put the storyline short, you are a drilling machine and have been tasked by Mr. Natas to excavate gems of many kinds in another planet. All stores available are mechanized/computerized as the planet itself is uninhabited. As you excavate down, Mr. Natas sends a few transmission messages to you. However, as you excavate deeper, mysterious things begin to happen...
And yes, it is MYSTERIOUS. You will never expect what happens until the end. I advise to play this game during the mid-afternoon/early evening cause you may receive too many goosebumps while playing. There are NO ghosts/freaky stuff at all, other than explosions [made by you or...], but what is transmitted to you is the one that spooked me out.
Even as I'm typing this, I still have a little bit of goosebumps here and there from what I just played.
Here's the link to the game [from Miniclip games]: http://www.miniclip.com/games/motherload/en/ (copy paste the link)
This game is NOT meant to be played in one go, you should save the game [there's a save point at the surface] and return when you have the time.
This is the first time I've played it till the end, most of the other times I just ended it prematurely without saving, and I had to restart ._. I was bored a few days back and started it again...
Well, here's a few pictures of what you can expect AT THE END... But be warned, things in the game are not what it seems...
Yup, that's the end of the game, and it definitely was a full-of-goosebumps game for me. Maybe I get spooked too easily.
Anyway, just a final tip before I end: Should you wish to play the game, and reach that area, you may want to prepare yourself with... literally, hundreds of plastic explosives, and hundreds of repair bots. Okay, maybe not like 400 or something, 100 to 200 will do if you're careful.
The boss HURTS, you need to watch out. Your plastic explosives also have a small range of attack only, so use it wisely... [you will need to be nearly touching it for the blast to hit it]
That's all from me, enjoy this game if you would :).
/end post
Let It Out - Miho Fukuhara
Second post for the day. Yeah I'm a little late, but I might as well spread the message! :D
The PV for Full Metal Alchemist ED 2 - Let It Out by Miho Fukuhara has been released! I can't wait for the album now :o
For those wishing to listen to it, here it is :).
The lyrics fit VERY well to the Elric bros' situation. It definitely is a wonderful song to listen to.
/end
The PV for Full Metal Alchemist ED 2 - Let It Out by Miho Fukuhara has been released! I can't wait for the album now :o
For those wishing to listen to it, here it is :).
The lyrics fit VERY well to the Elric bros' situation. It definitely is a wonderful song to listen to.
/end
Reflections XII - Window to the Soul
... You all should understand what it means right? :)
For those of you who guessed it, yes, it's the eyes.
Common saying goes like this: The eyes are the windows to your soul. I'd definitely accept that. It really seems true.
So why am I speaking of it today?
I just, myself, realized of it when I was taking the bus home today. Chem paper 2 completed, was returning home with a bunch of my friends.
Or maybe I should say, from the time we exited the school till I reached home, there was this indefinite period of time that I felt something... weird. Something that I cannot explain with words... or maybe I can?
I was looking at something, as if looking at blank air. At least no one noticed :P.
But that's not the point. The point is, while looking at nothing, I seemed to drift off. I just felt as if I wasn't physically there, but looking for something.
Are my eyes telling me something? Is there something that I'm searching for?
Is my soul seeking something that I am, too seeking, but do not know of or have not realized it yet?
There's endless amounts of questions after what happened. And it was definitely a very strange experience.
If the eyes are connected to our soul, it means that what we see is what our soul sees. What we experience is what it experiences. If that's the case, does this mean that if the soul is seeking something, it reflects in what we do... as well?
/end post [sigh >_> the blog's javascript isn't fixed YET!]
For those of you who guessed it, yes, it's the eyes.
Common saying goes like this: The eyes are the windows to your soul. I'd definitely accept that. It really seems true.
So why am I speaking of it today?
I just, myself, realized of it when I was taking the bus home today. Chem paper 2 completed, was returning home with a bunch of my friends.
Or maybe I should say, from the time we exited the school till I reached home, there was this indefinite period of time that I felt something... weird. Something that I cannot explain with words... or maybe I can?
I was looking at something, as if looking at blank air. At least no one noticed :P.
But that's not the point. The point is, while looking at nothing, I seemed to drift off. I just felt as if I wasn't physically there, but looking for something.
Are my eyes telling me something? Is there something that I'm searching for?
Is my soul seeking something that I am, too seeking, but do not know of or have not realized it yet?
There's endless amounts of questions after what happened. And it was definitely a very strange experience.
If the eyes are connected to our soul, it means that what we see is what our soul sees. What we experience is what it experiences. If that's the case, does this mean that if the soul is seeking something, it reflects in what we do... as well?
/end post [sigh >_> the blog's javascript isn't fixed YET!]
Friday, August 21, 2009
Mixed Feelings
4th day of prelims over.
Should I feel angry for whatever reason towards today's paper?
Should I feel worried for what's the future papers going to be like?
Should I instead, FEAR what the questions the papers are going to have?
Should I feel depressed that my hard efforts of studying seem to have gone to waste?
Should I just stop at where I am and just let myself fade away into the shadows?
Should I get tensed over other subjects?
Should I leave everything alone, and do nothing?
Should I pick myself up and spur myself for the next week?
Should I commit myself to what my heart really desires?
Should I...?
/end post [no, not emo, just a large series of questions]
Should I feel angry for whatever reason towards today's paper?
Should I feel worried for what's the future papers going to be like?
Should I instead, FEAR what the questions the papers are going to have?
Should I feel depressed that my hard efforts of studying seem to have gone to waste?
Should I just stop at where I am and just let myself fade away into the shadows?
Should I get tensed over other subjects?
Should I leave everything alone, and do nothing?
Should I pick myself up and spur myself for the next week?
Should I commit myself to what my heart really desires?
Should I...?
/end post [no, not emo, just a large series of questions]
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Reflections XI
Oh well, Blogger's formatting isn't back to normal yet. Lazy to use the shortcuts to emphasize things, eheh.
I'll keep things short and sweet this time.
Three days into our preliminary exams, I'm not seeing any easy papers ahead. That's obvious isn't it? To "prepare" us for A'levels, that is.
Anyway, that isn't what I wanna talk about today. Just very simply:
Why is it so difficult to say certain things to people closest to you?
After how much that I've experienced for the past months, it's really... slowly coming into me. While we realize things, there doesn't seem to be a simple solution.
Saying "just pluck up your courage and speak out", isn't helpful. Don't tell me you can do that EVERY SINGLE TIME you wish to say something to people close to you.
Actually, depending on the size of the matter, it really seems to matter how you want to approach it, and whether you can or not. As time slowly ticks away, I'll have to find a solution no matter what. And I think I have... already. We'll see.
/end post
I'll keep things short and sweet this time.
Three days into our preliminary exams, I'm not seeing any easy papers ahead. That's obvious isn't it? To "prepare" us for A'levels, that is.
Anyway, that isn't what I wanna talk about today. Just very simply:
Why is it so difficult to say certain things to people closest to you?
After how much that I've experienced for the past months, it's really... slowly coming into me. While we realize things, there doesn't seem to be a simple solution.
Saying "just pluck up your courage and speak out", isn't helpful. Don't tell me you can do that EVERY SINGLE TIME you wish to say something to people close to you.
Actually, depending on the size of the matter, it really seems to matter how you want to approach it, and whether you can or not. As time slowly ticks away, I'll have to find a solution no matter what. And I think I have... already. We'll see.
/end post
Monday, August 17, 2009
Reflections X - Once more...
As things slowly progress and shift in my life, I sometimes do wonder: Is everything meant to be? Or are things just pure 'coincidences'?
Because Typhoon Morakot struck parts of China, lots of things went into chaos, especially those who depended on undersea lines...
Such as those in Singapore.
Not that I'm being apathetic and blaming the typhoon, of course. The inconvenience I experience can be bearable. Lives lost in China cannot wait. Too bad the undersea lines got affected ~_~. More protective measures can be placed for the lines next time... I suppose. Or maybe it's protected enough?
Anyway, the disruption in undersea lines definitely had a big impact. First up was a very slow connection to any US websites. Actually, if I'm not wrong, access to many sites from China were also affected.
At the least, within 24 hours of this disruption, the lines were first rerouted through other lines, and repair works immediately went underway.
Of course, most sites we visit are sites from the US. Don't deny it, it's true. Most, that is.
Of course the aftereffects even after the repairs were [supposedly] completed could still be felt.
First up is definitely, for those who use Facebook, the problem of loading Facebook *fully*. Either you would be faced with a blank screen, or you get a Javascript problem when doing any stuff on FB.
At the same time, as I'm typing now, the Javascript problem is also affecting Blogger, as well as Hotmail. Heh, one undersea line and everything goes awry.
But oh well, these all will only last for a while anyway. Everything returns to normal after a while.
So, as an avid gamer [still], it's apparent how problematic accessing US based games were. And hence, I don't think I did have decent gaming time.
The thing is, everything seems to be really coincidental. It's prelims starting tomorrow, and this sort of incident occurs.
It's as if there's a hint to say "stop whatever you're doing, focus on your work". Is that really happening, or is it just, well, coincidence?
As works go on to rescue survivors or sadly, those deceased in this unfortunate incident, so are works underway on those undersea cables. Everything seems to fall into place very neatly. How coincidental could all of these be? I may never know...
I wish for a most efficient rescue process such that more survivors of the incident can return to their families, and at the same time, send my heartfelt condolences to those who have lost some. It is unfortunate such an incident occurred, but we'll get stronger, and smarter after every 'fall', and so will this 'fall' allow us to see what our mistakes were.
/end post
Because Typhoon Morakot struck parts of China, lots of things went into chaos, especially those who depended on undersea lines...
Such as those in Singapore.
Not that I'm being apathetic and blaming the typhoon, of course. The inconvenience I experience can be bearable. Lives lost in China cannot wait. Too bad the undersea lines got affected ~_~. More protective measures can be placed for the lines next time... I suppose. Or maybe it's protected enough?
Anyway, the disruption in undersea lines definitely had a big impact. First up was a very slow connection to any US websites. Actually, if I'm not wrong, access to many sites from China were also affected.
At the least, within 24 hours of this disruption, the lines were first rerouted through other lines, and repair works immediately went underway.
Of course, most sites we visit are sites from the US. Don't deny it, it's true. Most, that is.
Of course the aftereffects even after the repairs were [supposedly] completed could still be felt.
First up is definitely, for those who use Facebook, the problem of loading Facebook *fully*. Either you would be faced with a blank screen, or you get a Javascript problem when doing any stuff on FB.
At the same time, as I'm typing now, the Javascript problem is also affecting Blogger, as well as Hotmail. Heh, one undersea line and everything goes awry.
But oh well, these all will only last for a while anyway. Everything returns to normal after a while.
So, as an avid gamer [still], it's apparent how problematic accessing US based games were. And hence, I don't think I did have decent gaming time.
The thing is, everything seems to be really coincidental. It's prelims starting tomorrow, and this sort of incident occurs.
It's as if there's a hint to say "stop whatever you're doing, focus on your work". Is that really happening, or is it just, well, coincidence?
As works go on to rescue survivors or sadly, those deceased in this unfortunate incident, so are works underway on those undersea cables. Everything seems to fall into place very neatly. How coincidental could all of these be? I may never know...
I wish for a most efficient rescue process such that more survivors of the incident can return to their families, and at the same time, send my heartfelt condolences to those who have lost some. It is unfortunate such an incident occurred, but we'll get stronger, and smarter after every 'fall', and so will this 'fall' allow us to see what our mistakes were.
/end post
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I Purchased A...
Okay, not really me, but my father did for me :D
Since I had the time to make a post, might as well introduce it to you all!
I just recently [on Saturday] got a brand new HDD ;). Went down personally to look at the colors, and only silver/black caught my attention. The rest were not very interesting to me :P.
In the end, I chose the sleek black one, and am already enjoying using it! Very large disk space, and it's definitely going to help me in future, or maybe even now!
Always wanted to have a HDD of my own, considering that sharing HDDs sometime isn't really convenient ~_~. At least now I have one of my own to use and keep!
/end post
Since I had the time to make a post, might as well introduce it to you all!
I just recently [on Saturday] got a brand new HDD ;). Went down personally to look at the colors, and only silver/black caught my attention. The rest were not very interesting to me :P.
In the end, I chose the sleek black one, and am already enjoying using it! Very large disk space, and it's definitely going to help me in future, or maybe even now!
Always wanted to have a HDD of my own, considering that sharing HDDs sometime isn't really convenient ~_~. At least now I have one of my own to use and keep!
/end post
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Eien
Yes, another song I decided to share. I forgot to share it in my previous post so here it is! And yes, it's a Japanese song :P. I'm too influenced by the J-wave already! Heh!
Eien means "eternity" or "everlasting" or... you know what I mean :).
Here it is, Eien by Yuusaku Kiyama. Enjoy!
Eien means "eternity" or "everlasting" or... you know what I mean :).
Here it is, Eien by Yuusaku Kiyama. Enjoy!
Fantasy No More
It's 1 week left to prelims.
It's 7 days left to prelims.
It's 168 hours left to prelims.
It's 10080 minutes left to prelims.
It's 604800 seconds left to prelims.
Okay, that obviously isn't the exact number, but it's close enough! =/
So now, gaming has been an integral part of my life, ever since the Internet era started, or maybe when I had my hands on one of my computers.
Yet, gaming is the one thing that will destroy my life should I continue further with what I'm doing.
So it's back down from Heaven to Earth, and it's time to face whatever comes rolling in. Intensity rises, and everything will slowly sink in as time passes by...
Will be buying something tomorrow, maybe I can share it with everyone! :P
/end post
It's 7 days left to prelims.
It's 168 hours left to prelims.
It's 10080 minutes left to prelims.
It's 604800 seconds left to prelims.
Okay, that obviously isn't the exact number, but it's close enough! =/
So now, gaming has been an integral part of my life, ever since the Internet era started, or maybe when I had my hands on one of my computers.
Yet, gaming is the one thing that will destroy my life should I continue further with what I'm doing.
So it's back down from Heaven to Earth, and it's time to face whatever comes rolling in. Intensity rises, and everything will slowly sink in as time passes by...
Will be buying something tomorrow, maybe I can share it with everyone! :P
/end post
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Random Post
YES! Finally >_>. Everything SEEMS to be back to normal, I hope. My bold, italics icons are all back! YEAH!
So, I went to take an evening nap, and woke up at like...10+pm? And I'm definitely regretting it right now!
Posting in the midnight is really interesting in a way though, cause no one is here to disturb you while typing whatever you wish to express, and you seem to feel more calm under the moonlight [at least for me].
I can't sleep now =/ Not when I took a "nap" for 4 hours! Someone x_X SAVE ME!!! Or maybe not, just kidding. I'm used to having late nights already, with 4-5am being my latest sleeping time occasionally.
Today's a Wednesday, and approximately 1am. This means I have 36 hours left in my Term 3 college life before we're released for study breaks and all, to prepare for our exams. Good, and bad, obviously. Especially with my insatiable thirst for leisure time...
And it's class phototaking later in the afternoon! I don't wanna take a photo which shows my panda eyes ._.! Hopefully it won't be the case...
/ends post
So, I went to take an evening nap, and woke up at like...10+pm? And I'm definitely regretting it right now!
Posting in the midnight is really interesting in a way though, cause no one is here to disturb you while typing whatever you wish to express, and you seem to feel more calm under the moonlight [at least for me].
I can't sleep now =/ Not when I took a "nap" for 4 hours! Someone x_X SAVE ME!!! Or maybe not, just kidding. I'm used to having late nights already, with 4-5am being my latest sleeping time occasionally.
Today's a Wednesday, and approximately 1am. This means I have 36 hours left in my Term 3 college life before we're released for study breaks and all, to prepare for our exams. Good, and bad, obviously. Especially with my insatiable thirst for leisure time...
And it's class phototaking later in the afternoon! I don't wanna take a photo which shows my panda eyes ._.! Hopefully it won't be the case...
/ends post
Monday, August 3, 2009
Surprises and the Road to Hell
. It doesn't seem like the whole blog bug for me is fixed yet. At the least it's slightly better I suppose.
But anyway, time for some interesting chat. [Short? Long? I have no idea...]
First up, it's interesting how things pop in to give you a surprise in your life. Just when you have given up, just when all hope seems to be gone, it just returns back to you. The feeling is overwhelming, and for those who haven't experienced it before, maybe you will... soon.
But, when such things return, it really, really, seems to cause quite a little bit of problem. Especially when you've planned everything so nicely, and this surprise pops in, everything just... screws up. But still, it's always nice to have surprises, no? :)
Sometimes, I really wonder if life's just like that. Losing all hope is not what's permissible, that's why you get a rejuvenation when a surprise falls from the sky. Sadly, it's also a way to force you to cope TOGETHER with the surprise, especially if the surprise is a pretty permanent one.
I do hope though, that things will slowly ease off, and my life returns back to what it somehow was. But I really need to study now >.> and speaking about that...
Second, I hope not many people are pinning high hopes on me =/. It's in a way nice to see so many people thinking highly of me [or maybe it's my wishful thinking, lol] but after these few months, I realized I'm changing.
Changing into someone..really different. Changing into someone who's getting lazier at the moment [:o!] And someone who really needs someone to slap/punch him to wake him up from his dreams. These dreams, though ever so enjoyable, will just lead me to a path of hell.
Who's going to be there to wake me up though? It's not an easy thing to get motivated, much less wake up from this "dream" of mine. At the same time, I don't really want to disappoint those around me, cause... that just shows how much of a failure I am. I cannot do this to them.
While I look oh so hardworking [not that I really am] in school, it seems as though I'm there for the sake of well, being there. Not that I don't want to listen or whatever, but I don't revise after that >_>. What I learned stays at where I learned it. It's hard to carry it elsewhere, y'know?
All in all, while things really seem to have shifted for me, and I really appreciate it, it's really weird that I don't feel stress up to this point in time. Is there a trigger, like a switch, that can power me up to the stress level that everyone should be feeling? I don't really know...
/ends rant
So that's a short[long] summary of my thoughts. A little hard to explain further, considering how complicated everything is x_X. Or is there just a simple solution to this...? hmm.....
/ends post
But anyway, time for some interesting chat. [Short? Long? I have no idea...]
First up, it's interesting how things pop in to give you a surprise in your life. Just when you have given up, just when all hope seems to be gone, it just returns back to you. The feeling is overwhelming, and for those who haven't experienced it before, maybe you will... soon.
But, when such things return, it really, really, seems to cause quite a little bit of problem. Especially when you've planned everything so nicely, and this surprise pops in, everything just... screws up. But still, it's always nice to have surprises, no? :)
Sometimes, I really wonder if life's just like that. Losing all hope is not what's permissible, that's why you get a rejuvenation when a surprise falls from the sky. Sadly, it's also a way to force you to cope TOGETHER with the surprise, especially if the surprise is a pretty permanent one.
I do hope though, that things will slowly ease off, and my life returns back to what it somehow was. But I really need to study now >.> and speaking about that...
Second, I hope not many people are pinning high hopes on me =/. It's in a way nice to see so many people thinking highly of me [or maybe it's my wishful thinking, lol] but after these few months, I realized I'm changing.
Changing into someone..really different. Changing into someone who's getting lazier at the moment [:o!] And someone who really needs someone to slap/punch him to wake him up from his dreams. These dreams, though ever so enjoyable, will just lead me to a path of hell.
Who's going to be there to wake me up though? It's not an easy thing to get motivated, much less wake up from this "dream" of mine. At the same time, I don't really want to disappoint those around me, cause... that just shows how much of a failure I am. I cannot do this to them.
While I look oh so hardworking [not that I really am] in school, it seems as though I'm there for the sake of well, being there. Not that I don't want to listen or whatever, but I don't revise after that >_>. What I learned stays at where I learned it. It's hard to carry it elsewhere, y'know?
All in all, while things really seem to have shifted for me, and I really appreciate it, it's really weird that I don't feel stress up to this point in time. Is there a trigger, like a switch, that can power me up to the stress level that everyone should be feeling? I don't really know...
/ends rant
So that's a short[long] summary of my thoughts. A little hard to explain further, considering how complicated everything is x_X. Or is there just a simple solution to this...? hmm.....
/ends post
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Zombified + Naruto Shippuden ED 10
O..k...so I've been having problems accessing + using my blog in the past few days.
At the least, I now can type in a proper box that's not too awkwardly out of place.
Anyway, on to today's chat.
Ever felt like for the whole day, everything around you is just dull and dead? As if you can't bother to do anything, but yet you can't fall asleep?
That's definitely what happened to me, at least in the morning anyway. Through a whole lesson, I couldn't really be bothered in doing anything. And I mean anything. Writing, listening. Heck, even sleeping! It's like I became a half-zombie for a few hours. That feeling definitely sucked bad, but it just disappeared after a while.
While things move on slowly, it feels as if my pace is way off what I'm supposed to do. I look around and realize that maybe I should do things I haven't done yet. Maybe it is time to try things and all.
Maybe, just maybe, I've done wrong in attempting to bring control to my life, cause I can't really get controlled...much. :P
As revision mode starts up, the engine doesn't seem to want to budge. How long will it take before it works? Or will I have to dispose of the engine and get a new one [which I obviously can't]?
Anyway, just a song I began to like recently. It's the latest Naruto Shippuden ending theme [ED 10], "My Answer" by SEAMO.
This is the PV [promotional video] for the song, hopefully it doesn't get removed so soon.
But first, the song in the anime itself:
and now the PV [it has a catchy rap x)]
There actually was one with the lyrics but the user removed it. Oh well =/.
That's all from me today.
-Gone]
At the least, I now can type in a proper box that's not too awkwardly out of place.
Anyway, on to today's chat.
Ever felt like for the whole day, everything around you is just dull and dead? As if you can't bother to do anything, but yet you can't fall asleep?
That's definitely what happened to me, at least in the morning anyway. Through a whole lesson, I couldn't really be bothered in doing anything. And I mean anything. Writing, listening. Heck, even sleeping! It's like I became a half-zombie for a few hours. That feeling definitely sucked bad, but it just disappeared after a while.
While things move on slowly, it feels as if my pace is way off what I'm supposed to do. I look around and realize that maybe I should do things I haven't done yet. Maybe it is time to try things and all.
Maybe, just maybe, I've done wrong in attempting to bring control to my life, cause I can't really get controlled...much. :P
As revision mode starts up, the engine doesn't seem to want to budge. How long will it take before it works? Or will I have to dispose of the engine and get a new one [which I obviously can't]?
Anyway, just a song I began to like recently. It's the latest Naruto Shippuden ending theme [ED 10], "My Answer" by SEAMO.
This is the PV [promotional video] for the song, hopefully it doesn't get removed so soon.
But first, the song in the anime itself:
and now the PV [it has a catchy rap x)]
There actually was one with the lyrics but the user removed it. Oh well =/.
That's all from me today.
-Gone]
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Reflections IX - Action VS Procrastination
Time ticks by ever so quickly. Would this be a short blog post? [So many people comment my blog's too wordy! >
What is it that holds back people from doing things? What is it that causes them to just continue delaying what they wish to do?
I've been living a sedentary life, with much left undone. Yet, as time passes, things begin to evolve and I notice many things I haven't before.
These things, could very well be what paves my path to the future, yet I don't know what I should do. Should I take action? Or should I just leave it as it is and continue procrastinating?
"Short term pain for long term gain" - Just nice, it fits into the context for today.
I've always been a procrastinator, holding things back before anything else. It's cause of all these that I feel I'm leading myself to a path of destruction.
How easy is it to pull oneself back from this path onto the path I should have gone?
Action is always harder than procrastination, yet it is action that deals to us the most benefits. Even if I do want to take action, I... need to break barriers.
As time ticks by...
To take action, is to cause myself suffering but ultimately, I get lots of gains. And even more likely, I become a better person as a whole.
It's time to stop swimming in the pool of fantasy, and plunge down into the deepest depths of my ownself to know what I should do.
-Dousing The Raging Flames of Darkness-
What is it that holds back people from doing things? What is it that causes them to just continue delaying what they wish to do?
I've been living a sedentary life, with much left undone. Yet, as time passes, things begin to evolve and I notice many things I haven't before.
These things, could very well be what paves my path to the future, yet I don't know what I should do. Should I take action? Or should I just leave it as it is and continue procrastinating?
"Short term pain for long term gain" - Just nice, it fits into the context for today.
I've always been a procrastinator, holding things back before anything else. It's cause of all these that I feel I'm leading myself to a path of destruction.
How easy is it to pull oneself back from this path onto the path I should have gone?
Action is always harder than procrastination, yet it is action that deals to us the most benefits. Even if I do want to take action, I... need to break barriers.
As time ticks by...
To take action, is to cause myself suffering but ultimately, I get lots of gains. And even more likely, I become a better person as a whole.
It's time to stop swimming in the pool of fantasy, and plunge down into the deepest depths of my ownself to know what I should do.
-Dousing The Raging Flames of Darkness-
Friday, July 17, 2009
Full Metal Alchemist - Brotherhood, OP 2, ED 2
Yup, back with the next 2 songs used in Full Metal Alchemist - Brotherhood!
I'll keep it chop chop, here are the 2 songs.
First up, is OP 2, Hologram by NICO Touches the Wall.
and ED 2, Let It Out by Miho Fukuhara.
Oh and, prepare for these videos to get removed REAL fast. It's copyrighted by respective authors/singers, so I'm not surprised. Enjoy while you still can! ~_~
I'll try to replace any removed content if possible, but no guarantees!
Anyway, these 2 songs are really catching up to me already! Time to slowly practice singing these 2... xD!
I'll keep it chop chop, here are the 2 songs.
First up, is OP 2, Hologram by NICO Touches the Wall.
and ED 2, Let It Out by Miho Fukuhara.
Oh and, prepare for these videos to get removed REAL fast. It's copyrighted by respective authors/singers, so I'm not surprised. Enjoy while you still can! ~_~
I'll try to replace any removed content if possible, but no guarantees!
Anyway, these 2 songs are really catching up to me already! Time to slowly practice singing these 2... xD!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Learning As I Move On
Eh, I never knew that the color thingy for blogs was still here. LOL! Ever since a few weeks back when I couldn't choose colors, I thought it was removed cause people were abusing it. [Stupid me!]
Then, today, I saw the word "Compose", beside "Edit Html". Of course, I thought it would help me in editing my photos [which I must say was some problem when I released it the first time], so I clicked it.
...And the color function was there ._. /facepalm
For so long! I kept wanting to use colors but thought it was removed! OMG~
Luckily now I know how this works...somehow.
And at the least I know how to change the size of my pictures after 3 months of blogging! It definitely took me long enough, but I know now ;D
I guess learning is really a neverending process, eh?
-Gone-
Then, today, I saw the word "Compose", beside "Edit Html". Of course, I thought it would help me in editing my photos [which I must say was some problem when I released it the first time], so I clicked it.
...And the color function was there ._. /facepalm
For so long! I kept wanting to use colors but thought it was removed! OMG~
Luckily now I know how this works...somehow.
And at the least I know how to change the size of my pictures after 3 months of blogging! It definitely took me long enough, but I know now ;D
I guess learning is really a neverending process, eh?
-Gone-
Cosfest 2009 - Part II
Alright, here's Part II of Cosfest 2009 - A Very Happy Event.
Lots of photos here [actually not alot compared to those I've seen!], and I definitely had lots of fun taking photos everywhere.
First up, I'll have to thank Venessa [I spelled your name right! :D] for inviting me to this event. I actually never gone to one before, and considering it was my first time, it definitely was VERY worth it! Thanks again Venessa =).
Next, sorry if any of you sees too little photos! Still an amateur photographer here, and I was still a little shy in approaching people to take photos :P.
Thirdly, there's a few pictures that are blurry! Especially those at the start... must have been cause I was still new to using the camera [it isn't mine, I hardly use it]. But I got really good at it [ha!] after some time ^^! It should be quite easy to make out the pictures..I guess? LOL!
Alrighty! PICTURES GALORE~~~~~~*High Bandwidth Warning!*
First, to introduce the person who invited me! *Drum roll~~*
And a few of their group's photos! [Fate/Stay Night]
[D.Gray-man]
Too bad I didn't manage to take a photo of Allen and Kanda! =/ Couldn't find them after crossing paths once...
[Naruto]
[Bleach]
There was a singing competition held on Saturday, and although I missed most of them, I did manage to get there in time to listen to a few of the songs. I applaud them for their courage to go on stage to sing! It's definitely not an easy thing to do =).
And some of the winners...
Does anyone find the person giving out prizes [center, purple collar shirt, black long pants] familiar? I sure did! He was Mr. Rasull [Did I spell it right?], my ex-secondary school music teacher! I totally got a shock when I actually saw him!! And I was still thinking that I heard wrongly when his name was announced as a judge for the singing competition. Too bad I didn't have time to chat with him! =/
Alright! Other than these, there was a few other photos that I found really hilarious and memorable x). A few of them are a mix of different anime, too!
One being this! Naruto + Tia Harribel, from Naruto and Bleach respectively.
There was one very interesting person cosplaying, who definitely mingled well with everyone. Laughter was at everywhere this person went!
Some of the LOL poses that he [the guy in the middle] influenced them to make :P
He definitely cracked me up x). One of the first few cosplayers I saw was him! [That's a male cosplaying Alex Louis Armstrong right?]
More photos, less talk from me!
^The very first photo I took when I came in. She definitely caught my attention :P.^
There was also some stuff being sold at booths set up there, and one of them caught my attention:
In the time that I was moving around the area, I actually came into close contact with someone cosplaying Jack the Ripper [you know, the legendary killer from long ago]. BUT! I lost all my balls and didn't go ask him if I could take a photo with him! ._. He was one of those who looked really like the actual character himself, but yet I didn't grasp the opportunity... =(. He left in the end before my guts returned >_>.
But anyway, to salvage the situation, just before I left the event area, I gathered up my courage and asked this one person if I could take a photo of him...
Yeah! Success~ So that wasn't too bad eh?
In the whole cosplay event, someone from the singles category, and a group from the group category [obviously] would be sent to Japan to compete in another competition! And the winner was...
Alex Louis Armstrong's cosplayer! He was quite a popular character in the whole event, considering how well he mingled with the crowd...
Anyway, that's all I have to share for this event! I'll definitely be getting myself exposed to more of such events in future ;).
Thanks Venessa again! Without your invitation I think I wouldn't have gone, and would've missed out on so much fun in the event!
Lots of photos here [actually not alot compared to those I've seen!], and I definitely had lots of fun taking photos everywhere.
First up, I'll have to thank Venessa [I spelled your name right! :D] for inviting me to this event. I actually never gone to one before, and considering it was my first time, it definitely was VERY worth it! Thanks again Venessa =).
Next, sorry if any of you sees too little photos! Still an amateur photographer here, and I was still a little shy in approaching people to take photos :P.
Thirdly, there's a few pictures that are blurry! Especially those at the start... must have been cause I was still new to using the camera [it isn't mine, I hardly use it]. But I got really good at it [ha!] after some time ^^! It should be quite easy to make out the pictures..I guess? LOL!
Alrighty! PICTURES GALORE~~~~~~*High Bandwidth Warning!*
First, to introduce the person who invited me! *Drum roll~~*
And a few of their group's photos! [Fate/Stay Night]
[D.Gray-man]
Too bad I didn't manage to take a photo of Allen and Kanda! =/ Couldn't find them after crossing paths once...
[Naruto]
[Bleach]
There was a singing competition held on Saturday, and although I missed most of them, I did manage to get there in time to listen to a few of the songs. I applaud them for their courage to go on stage to sing! It's definitely not an easy thing to do =).
And some of the winners...
Does anyone find the person giving out prizes [center, purple collar shirt, black long pants] familiar? I sure did! He was Mr. Rasull [Did I spell it right?], my ex-secondary school music teacher! I totally got a shock when I actually saw him!! And I was still thinking that I heard wrongly when his name was announced as a judge for the singing competition. Too bad I didn't have time to chat with him! =/
Alright! Other than these, there was a few other photos that I found really hilarious and memorable x). A few of them are a mix of different anime, too!
One being this! Naruto + Tia Harribel, from Naruto and Bleach respectively.
There was one very interesting person cosplaying, who definitely mingled well with everyone. Laughter was at everywhere this person went!
Some of the LOL poses that he [the guy in the middle] influenced them to make :P
He definitely cracked me up x). One of the first few cosplayers I saw was him! [That's a male cosplaying Alex Louis Armstrong right?]
More photos, less talk from me!
^The very first photo I took when I came in. She definitely caught my attention :P.^
There was also some stuff being sold at booths set up there, and one of them caught my attention:
In the time that I was moving around the area, I actually came into close contact with someone cosplaying Jack the Ripper [you know, the legendary killer from long ago]. BUT! I lost all my balls and didn't go ask him if I could take a photo with him! ._. He was one of those who looked really like the actual character himself, but yet I didn't grasp the opportunity... =(. He left in the end before my guts returned >_>.
But anyway, to salvage the situation, just before I left the event area, I gathered up my courage and asked this one person if I could take a photo of him...
Yeah! Success~ So that wasn't too bad eh?
In the whole cosplay event, someone from the singles category, and a group from the group category [obviously] would be sent to Japan to compete in another competition! And the winner was...
Alex Louis Armstrong's cosplayer! He was quite a popular character in the whole event, considering how well he mingled with the crowd...
Anyway, that's all I have to share for this event! I'll definitely be getting myself exposed to more of such events in future ;).
Thanks Venessa again! Without your invitation I think I wouldn't have gone, and would've missed out on so much fun in the event!
Time Lag
For some reason or another, it seems as though I only post an event that has happened at least one day earlier, as if there's a time lag for me to post stuff.
Like for the part of Cosfest, it occurred on Saturday+Sunday, I posted in on Monday. And actually a few other stuffs were "a few days back" kind of occurrences. I wonder what's with that? xD
Anyway, it seems as though things are beginning to heat up in college. Everyone's beginning to mug in front of my eyes O_O! This is getting scary for me to look at.
And when my friend comments "I'm sure you are secretly mugging at home right?~" I can only laugh >_>! Cause... I haven't been doing that. Maybe that's why my results were pretty bad for Mid Year. Oh well. Time to start, if I haven't then.
I'm going off to watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince in just a few hours! Although I never read the book, I think I'll still be able to enjoy it. 2.5 hours of movie! Good for me to take a break...[wait, I've taken LOTS of those already!]
Anyway, I'm in the process of uploading photos of the Cosfest 2009! Should be done in... a while =p.
-Gone-
Like for the part of Cosfest, it occurred on Saturday+Sunday, I posted in on Monday. And actually a few other stuffs were "a few days back" kind of occurrences. I wonder what's with that? xD
Anyway, it seems as though things are beginning to heat up in college. Everyone's beginning to mug in front of my eyes O_O! This is getting scary for me to look at.
And when my friend comments "I'm sure you are secretly mugging at home right?~" I can only laugh >_>! Cause... I haven't been doing that. Maybe that's why my results were pretty bad for Mid Year. Oh well. Time to start, if I haven't then.
I'm going off to watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince in just a few hours! Although I never read the book, I think I'll still be able to enjoy it. 2.5 hours of movie! Good for me to take a break...[wait, I've taken LOTS of those already!]
Anyway, I'm in the process of uploading photos of the Cosfest 2009! Should be done in... a while =p.
-Gone-
Monday, July 13, 2009
Cosfest 2009 - Part I
Yes, for those who have heard the news on Sunday you would've probably known about it.
It was my first time joining the event actually, and I never really expected what was ahead of me.
Although it was a one hour plus long ride from Jurong East all the way to Pasir Ris, I would have to say that this event was definitely VERY worth it!! I don't regret going for this, that's for sure.
Luckily the weather was generally fine and had no signs of rain [which there was at my home]. The spirits of everyone there was definitely really hyped up with a huge variety of people everywhere cosplaying as different anime characters!
Considering it was my first time, seeing the crowd everywhere was a little bit of a surprise for me, but I managed to blend in anyway. Cameramen and all were everywhere! There was so much going on and I actually went there...a little late I must say. Just 3 hours to enjoy the event! Not enough for me :P
Of course, what's Cosfest without cosplayers? At the same time, I took photos [quite a little bit] whenever I had the chance to. It was a really interesting experience, and definitely has gotten me waiting for the next upcoming cosplay-related event already!
I'll post up the photos in another blog, once I have them all up... May take a day or two!
~*Cosplayed Into Flames of Darkness*~
It was my first time joining the event actually, and I never really expected what was ahead of me.
Although it was a one hour plus long ride from Jurong East all the way to Pasir Ris, I would have to say that this event was definitely VERY worth it!! I don't regret going for this, that's for sure.
Luckily the weather was generally fine and had no signs of rain [which there was at my home]. The spirits of everyone there was definitely really hyped up with a huge variety of people everywhere cosplaying as different anime characters!
Considering it was my first time, seeing the crowd everywhere was a little bit of a surprise for me, but I managed to blend in anyway. Cameramen and all were everywhere! There was so much going on and I actually went there...a little late I must say. Just 3 hours to enjoy the event! Not enough for me :P
Of course, what's Cosfest without cosplayers? At the same time, I took photos [quite a little bit] whenever I had the chance to. It was a really interesting experience, and definitely has gotten me waiting for the next upcoming cosplay-related event already!
I'll post up the photos in another blog, once I have them all up... May take a day or two!
~*Cosplayed Into Flames of Darkness*~
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Full Metal Alchemist - Brotherhood, ED1
The ending song of FMA - Brotherhood which is 嘘, or 'Lies'.
It's a pretty interesting song actually, and it's album is already released. I'm going to just give the video, lyrics...may or may not come >< a little strained when doing Again for some reason or another.
Here's the video! Enjoy ;)
Short post wasn't it? I'm going to go for a posting spree once I have the time. Having lots of activities the next few days, with Physics Common Test rearing it's head and coming on Monday!
And no, that's no lie. lol.
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
It's a pretty interesting song actually, and it's album is already released. I'm going to just give the video, lyrics...may or may not come >< a little strained when doing Again for some reason or another.
Here's the video! Enjoy ;)
Short post wasn't it? I'm going to go for a posting spree once I have the time. Having lots of activities the next few days, with Physics Common Test rearing it's head and coming on Monday!
And no, that's no lie. lol.
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
Friday, July 10, 2009
Posting... Again.
With some added stuff.
This time, I want to add in the song [which is available on shelves now], along with another song for Full Metal Alchemist. The lyrics for Again are VERY closely knit to my heart, and it actually seems to really reflect what's going on. No emo posting here, ok! =)
Here's the full song [No, no download links obviously!]
Click me!
What I really want you guys to notice however, is this one:
The shorter version of the song, used in the anime itself-
And now, the lyrics for the short version, cause I think it summarizes too many things I feel...
この想いを 消してしまうには
Kono omoi wo keshiteshimau niwa
I've still got a lot of years ahead of me
まだ人生長いでしょ?
Mada jinsei nagai desho
To just erase these feelings?
やり残してること
Yarinoshiteru koto
I want to go back and finish
やり直してみたいから
Yarinaoshite mitai kara
The things that I've yet to finish.
夢のつづき 追いかけていたはずなのに
Yume no tsuzuki oikaketeita hazu nanoni
I was supposed to be chasing after my ongoing dream,
曲がりくねった 細い道 人につまずく
Magarikunetta hosoi michi hito ni tsumazuku
Yet I faltered over others while walking this thin, winding path.
あの頃みたいにって 戻りたいわけじゃないの
Ano koro mitainitte modoritai wake ja nai no
It's not that I want to return to those days.
無くしてきた空を 探してる
Nakushitekita sora wo sagashiteru
I'm searching for the sky I lost.
わかってくれますように
Wakatte kuremasu youni
Don't make that sad face, as if you've fallen victim.
犠牲になったような 悲しい顔はやめてよ
Gisei ni natta youna kanashii kao wa yameteyo
As if you want people to pity you.
罪の最後は涙じゃないよ
Tsumi no saigo wa namida ja nai yo
Tears aren't the end of your sins.
ずっと苦しく背負ってくんだ
Zutto kurushiku seottekunda
You have to bear them painfully, forever.
出口見えない感情迷路に
Deguchi mienai kanjoumeiro ni
Who are you waiting for in the maze of emotions,
誰を待ってるの
Dare wo matteruno
Where you can't even see the exit?
白いノートに綴ったように
Shiroi nooto ni tsuzutta youni
I want to blurt it out more justly,
もっと素直に吐き出したいよ
Motto sunao ni hakidashitai yo
Just like how I wrote it in my white notebook.
何から 逃れたいんだ
Nani kara nogaretainda
What do you want to run from?
現実ってやつ
Genjitsu tte yatsu
That thing called "reality"?
叶えるために 生きてるんだって
Kanaeru tame ni ikiterundatte
I just want to scream out,
叫びたくなるよ 聞こえていますか
Sakebitaku naru yo kikoeteimasuka
"I'm only living to fulfill my wish." Can you hear me?
無難になんて やってられないから
Bunan ni nante yatterarenaikara
I can't take the safe way out of everything.
帰る場所もないの
Kaeru basho mo nai no
I don't even have a place to return to.
優しさには いつも感謝してる
Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kansha shiteru
I'm always thankful for everyone's kindness,
だから強くなりたい (I'm on the way)
Dakara tsuyoku naritai
That's why I want to become stronger. (I'm on the way)
懐かしくなる
Natsukashiku naru
This is reminding me of the old days.
こんな痛みも歓迎じゃん
Konna itami mo kangei jan
This pain is all right with me.
WHEW! That took me some time to set up, especially when I'm trying to learn Japanese at the same time xD! It was a really fun thing to do, I hope you guys like it. Not sure how it's going to turn out yet though.
Anyway, the above lyrics are credits to:
http://isharetoyou.blogspot.com/2009/04/fullmetal-alchemist-op-theme-yui-again.html
as well as massive references to Eclipse. Without both of these I don't think I can actually get this out.
Of course, as always, it's not necessarily 100% accurate, but it's the closest as it can get already. Hope you all enjoy it, Again!
Maybe you can infer some stuff from the lyrics, maybe not. I'm not going to say much about anything, but this has definitely been one of the most interesting blog posts I've made [to me].
Enjoy! Another post is coming up in a few minutes...
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
This time, I want to add in the song [which is available on shelves now], along with another song for Full Metal Alchemist. The lyrics for Again are VERY closely knit to my heart, and it actually seems to really reflect what's going on. No emo posting here, ok! =)
Here's the full song [No, no download links obviously!]
Click me!
What I really want you guys to notice however, is this one:
The shorter version of the song, used in the anime itself-
And now, the lyrics for the short version, cause I think it summarizes too many things I feel...
この想いを 消してしまうには
Kono omoi wo keshiteshimau niwa
I've still got a lot of years ahead of me
まだ人生長いでしょ?
Mada jinsei nagai desho
To just erase these feelings?
やり残してること
Yarinoshiteru koto
I want to go back and finish
やり直してみたいから
Yarinaoshite mitai kara
The things that I've yet to finish.
夢のつづき 追いかけていたはずなのに
Yume no tsuzuki oikaketeita hazu nanoni
I was supposed to be chasing after my ongoing dream,
曲がりくねった 細い道 人につまずく
Magarikunetta hosoi michi hito ni tsumazuku
Yet I faltered over others while walking this thin, winding path.
あの頃みたいにって 戻りたいわけじゃないの
Ano koro mitainitte modoritai wake ja nai no
It's not that I want to return to those days.
無くしてきた空を 探してる
Nakushitekita sora wo sagashiteru
I'm searching for the sky I lost.
わかってくれますように
Wakatte kuremasu youni
Don't make that sad face, as if you've fallen victim.
犠牲になったような 悲しい顔はやめてよ
Gisei ni natta youna kanashii kao wa yameteyo
As if you want people to pity you.
罪の最後は涙じゃないよ
Tsumi no saigo wa namida ja nai yo
Tears aren't the end of your sins.
ずっと苦しく背負ってくんだ
Zutto kurushiku seottekunda
You have to bear them painfully, forever.
出口見えない感情迷路に
Deguchi mienai kanjoumeiro ni
Who are you waiting for in the maze of emotions,
誰を待ってるの
Dare wo matteruno
Where you can't even see the exit?
白いノートに綴ったように
Shiroi nooto ni tsuzutta youni
I want to blurt it out more justly,
もっと素直に吐き出したいよ
Motto sunao ni hakidashitai yo
Just like how I wrote it in my white notebook.
何から 逃れたいんだ
Nani kara nogaretainda
What do you want to run from?
現実ってやつ
Genjitsu tte yatsu
That thing called "reality"?
叶えるために 生きてるんだって
Kanaeru tame ni ikiterundatte
I just want to scream out,
叫びたくなるよ 聞こえていますか
Sakebitaku naru yo kikoeteimasuka
"I'm only living to fulfill my wish." Can you hear me?
無難になんて やってられないから
Bunan ni nante yatterarenaikara
I can't take the safe way out of everything.
帰る場所もないの
Kaeru basho mo nai no
I don't even have a place to return to.
優しさには いつも感謝してる
Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kansha shiteru
I'm always thankful for everyone's kindness,
だから強くなりたい (I'm on the way)
Dakara tsuyoku naritai
That's why I want to become stronger. (I'm on the way)
懐かしくなる
Natsukashiku naru
This is reminding me of the old days.
こんな痛みも歓迎じゃん
Konna itami mo kangei jan
This pain is all right with me.
WHEW! That took me some time to set up, especially when I'm trying to learn Japanese at the same time xD! It was a really fun thing to do, I hope you guys like it. Not sure how it's going to turn out yet though.
Anyway, the above lyrics are credits to:
http://isharetoyou.blogspot.com/2009/04/fullmetal-alchemist-op-theme-yui-again.html
as well as massive references to Eclipse. Without both of these I don't think I can actually get this out.
Of course, as always, it's not necessarily 100% accurate, but it's the closest as it can get already. Hope you all enjoy it, Again!
Maybe you can infer some stuff from the lyrics, maybe not. I'm not going to say much about anything, but this has definitely been one of the most interesting blog posts I've made [to me].
Enjoy! Another post is coming up in a few minutes...
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
Thursday, July 9, 2009
The Theory of Equivalent Exchange
I've been influenced many times over by things that I see in my life, and I must admit that "Equivalent Exchange" has been one of the things that's influencing me now.
Getting the idea from Full Metal Alchemist [it's an anime, if you don't know], the Theory of Equivalent Exchange implies that you cannot create something out of nothing; you must have the required "substances" to create anything, thus the theory of equivalent exchange.
That's roughly what I'm inferring about it of course, I may be wrong, but it's about there.
Now, what's really so important about this "Equivalent Exchange" is that it applies very much to anywhere in my life, or actually in anyone's life.
I'll just place a few examples here that I'm experiencing, or have experienced:
1) I gain "game time" (or just leisure time), exchanging my time for studies
2) I gain "game time" (once more), exchanging time to socialize
3) I exchange revision time for time periods to rest
4) I exchange not doing revision for exams to obtain poor marks [obviously seen from GP]
5) I exchange my sleep time to do something else [like blogging, now]
Right, that seems to be pretty much the same thing, relating to time, yet what lies under is most important.
Without exchanging anything, you cannot achieve something else. In my case, I've chosen to exchange some moments of suffering (study) for some moments of pleasure (leisure), and at the same time in exchange, I get horrendous scores from my exams.
It seems like this theory can apply anywhere actually. It's just whether you see it or not.
Sacrificing something to obtain what you want, huh? It seems like it's going to be a main push for me in time to come. Yet, is time on my side? Have I obtained too much leisure time, and exchanged too much study time that it's too late?
I definitely hope not, and as time slowly ticks by, I begin to see many things more clearly...
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
PS. This is just one of the few posts I'm going to be placing up within a day or two.
PPS. Just 2 views to 500! x)
Getting the idea from Full Metal Alchemist [it's an anime, if you don't know], the Theory of Equivalent Exchange implies that you cannot create something out of nothing; you must have the required "substances" to create anything, thus the theory of equivalent exchange.
That's roughly what I'm inferring about it of course, I may be wrong, but it's about there.
Now, what's really so important about this "Equivalent Exchange" is that it applies very much to anywhere in my life, or actually in anyone's life.
I'll just place a few examples here that I'm experiencing, or have experienced:
1) I gain "game time" (or just leisure time), exchanging my time for studies
2) I gain "game time" (once more), exchanging time to socialize
3) I exchange revision time for time periods to rest
4) I exchange not doing revision for exams to obtain poor marks [obviously seen from GP]
5) I exchange my sleep time to do something else [like blogging, now]
Right, that seems to be pretty much the same thing, relating to time, yet what lies under is most important.
Without exchanging anything, you cannot achieve something else. In my case, I've chosen to exchange some moments of suffering (study) for some moments of pleasure (leisure), and at the same time in exchange, I get horrendous scores from my exams.
It seems like this theory can apply anywhere actually. It's just whether you see it or not.
Sacrificing something to obtain what you want, huh? It seems like it's going to be a main push for me in time to come. Yet, is time on my side? Have I obtained too much leisure time, and exchanged too much study time that it's too late?
I definitely hope not, and as time slowly ticks by, I begin to see many things more clearly...
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
PS. This is just one of the few posts I'm going to be placing up within a day or two.
PPS. Just 2 views to 500! x)
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Ending Off Madness With More Serenity
With the end of the Econs examination, which I must comment was at the least, easier to answer than any of the other papers, this marks the end of the H2 exams.
It was interesting answering the questions for the Econs paper though. I thought I wasn't prepared enough. I thought I read too little. I thought I spent too little time on some topics.
Ironically, the one that I spent the least time on, I managed to answer more smoothly than those that I was spending more time on. I wonder what's up with that? Or maybe it's just my interest in the subject itself.
So now, it's 2 days of break for those who don't have any exams, and I'm one of those! Yeah! \o/
Good to take a break, especially when I seem to have accumulated TOO MUCH heatiness in my body. I'm breaking out in lots of ulcers, and it's getting worse. Need to sleep more...
Hopefully, I recover before the weekend well, ends. It's a pain to be brushing teeth with the ulcer right there and salt+ulcer combination seemed to have little to no effect on it for the first time. I wonder what happened?
First it started off with one, then it grew so large that it's still there. Halfway through, a second breaks out, right around my gum. Heck, this one is tiny, but it's pain can be extreme if not taken care of well!
Worse, I just realized today that a THIRD is growing out! This is going to be NUTS. I better get well soon if not I can forget about eating any food at all for the next few days...
Oh well, after all the negative experiences with the few papers, today's paper was one that brought my wild spirit back at ease. Finally something I could happily answer without going nuts over it.
However, I won't know the score until I receive the papers back, hm? The hardest to mark paper... I wonder how it turns out?
Off for today, it's near 2am! I'm supposed to be sleeping or my ulcer will kill me!
~*Blazing The Trails of Darkness*~
It was interesting answering the questions for the Econs paper though. I thought I wasn't prepared enough. I thought I read too little. I thought I spent too little time on some topics.
Ironically, the one that I spent the least time on, I managed to answer more smoothly than those that I was spending more time on. I wonder what's up with that? Or maybe it's just my interest in the subject itself.
So now, it's 2 days of break for those who don't have any exams, and I'm one of those! Yeah! \o/
Good to take a break, especially when I seem to have accumulated TOO MUCH heatiness in my body. I'm breaking out in lots of ulcers, and it's getting worse. Need to sleep more...
Hopefully, I recover before the weekend well, ends. It's a pain to be brushing teeth with the ulcer right there and salt+ulcer combination seemed to have little to no effect on it for the first time. I wonder what happened?
First it started off with one, then it grew so large that it's still there. Halfway through, a second breaks out, right around my gum. Heck, this one is tiny, but it's pain can be extreme if not taken care of well!
Worse, I just realized today that a THIRD is growing out! This is going to be NUTS. I better get well soon if not I can forget about eating any food at all for the next few days...
Oh well, after all the negative experiences with the few papers, today's paper was one that brought my wild spirit back at ease. Finally something I could happily answer without going nuts over it.
However, I won't know the score until I receive the papers back, hm? The hardest to mark paper... I wonder how it turns out?
Off for today, it's near 2am! I'm supposed to be sleeping or my ulcer will kill me!
~*Blazing The Trails of Darkness*~
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
As Things Take a Turn For The Worse
Finishing up the Chemistry paper was an "easy feat". No really, skipping questions and running out of time to finish them. Isn't it easier to end your misery this way? =)
Together with Paper 1, which made everyone scramble for time by randomly selecting an answer as time ticks by in the last 5 minutes, with 15 questions on the line, I think it's enough to say that this Chemistry paper is close to the "real thing".
Oh well, it's difficulty was expected, but my inability to answer many can't be blamed on the paper, but on myself.
Thanks to my "self-control" mechanism, everything went out of control instead. And the results will be reflected once I receive the papers from the tutor's hands after they finish marking.
Figures, what's the most optimistic score I can get from this? I don't even wish to ponder. Seeing all the blanks and unanswered parts is enough to kill me already.
Oh well, that's 2 down, one H2 paper left and then it's H1 Physics. Will things continue to worsen for tomorrow's Econs paper? We'll see...
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
Together with Paper 1, which made everyone scramble for time by randomly selecting an answer as time ticks by in the last 5 minutes, with 15 questions on the line, I think it's enough to say that this Chemistry paper is close to the "real thing".
Oh well, it's difficulty was expected, but my inability to answer many can't be blamed on the paper, but on myself.
Thanks to my "self-control" mechanism, everything went out of control instead. And the results will be reflected once I receive the papers from the tutor's hands after they finish marking.
Figures, what's the most optimistic score I can get from this? I don't even wish to ponder. Seeing all the blanks and unanswered parts is enough to kill me already.
Oh well, that's 2 down, one H2 paper left and then it's H1 Physics. Will things continue to worsen for tomorrow's Econs paper? We'll see...
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
Monday, June 29, 2009
Back to School...
And the Common Test begins with Maths as the second of 4 subjects to be tested!
Ranging from lightbulbs to items with defects, a plethora of questions are there to stump you!
Of course, all these came by me today, as well as a few others that I will end off with.
That's why last minute studying is bad! I should really have controlled myself ~_~.
Oh well, what's done is done. There's only one place to look to now: forward.
Chemistry test tomorrow, and even more madness to come. At least we'll get a break on Thursday and Friday.
But anyway, that's for the test. The next interesting thing would be considering the H1N1 flu outbreak, I wouldn't be surprised schools are taking up measures for temperature taking and such.
However, I never realized that JJ would be.. so elaborate on this O_O. It was a first for me to see, slightly chaotic, but at the same time I could feel the organization within this chaos. Glad to see that preventive measures are in full force!
Next few days would be really tough x_X rushing studies here and there [I regret it!] and attempting to finish lots of stuff. Prepare to see more fun stuff tomorrow and day after! :o
To end off: Light cabbage, heavy cabbage. They are all cabbages... right? That's why we need to know that vegetables are good for your health! >< *cold joke* [If you get what I mean, great!]
That's all from me =).
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
Ranging from lightbulbs to items with defects, a plethora of questions are there to stump you!
Of course, all these came by me today, as well as a few others that I will end off with.
That's why last minute studying is bad! I should really have controlled myself ~_~.
Oh well, what's done is done. There's only one place to look to now: forward.
Chemistry test tomorrow, and even more madness to come. At least we'll get a break on Thursday and Friday.
But anyway, that's for the test. The next interesting thing would be considering the H1N1 flu outbreak, I wouldn't be surprised schools are taking up measures for temperature taking and such.
However, I never realized that JJ would be.. so elaborate on this O_O. It was a first for me to see, slightly chaotic, but at the same time I could feel the organization within this chaos. Glad to see that preventive measures are in full force!
Next few days would be really tough x_X rushing studies here and there [I regret it!] and attempting to finish lots of stuff. Prepare to see more fun stuff tomorrow and day after! :o
To end off: Light cabbage, heavy cabbage. They are all cabbages... right? That's why we need to know that vegetables are good for your health! >< *cold joke* [If you get what I mean, great!]
That's all from me =).
~*Blazing The Trail of Darkness*~
Sunday, June 28, 2009
The Midnight Madness Has To End!
Before I begin, I hereby apologize for any typos made by me in this post.
Wow, it's 2 (or should I say 1?) day before school reopens and I'm awake at this time!
It's killing me of course, I'm desperate for some sleep currently. Once I'm done typing this I'm off to bed!
After the few weeks of holidays (seriously holidays to me), I wonder what I could have actually done in the process to change the outcome today.
Oh well, what's done is done. We have to walk forth and not look back... right? xD
Too many things to do, unknown if time is still on my side. I doubt so, so I'll have to run forth and grab it before it flies out of my grasp.
Less than 24 hours left, huh? We'll see...
Wow, it's 2 (or should I say 1?) day before school reopens and I'm awake at this time!
It's killing me of course, I'm desperate for some sleep currently. Once I'm done typing this I'm off to bed!
After the few weeks of holidays (seriously holidays to me), I wonder what I could have actually done in the process to change the outcome today.
Oh well, what's done is done. We have to walk forth and not look back... right? xD
Too many things to do, unknown if time is still on my side. I doubt so, so I'll have to run forth and grab it before it flies out of my grasp.
Less than 24 hours left, huh? We'll see...
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Something You May Want To Try
Hm, just a quick post here.
I just did this test, it's pretty long, but it's pretty interesting as well.
Something about... Aspie? I'm not very sure what it is, but I'll have to go take a look at the description again.
This is my result:
along with:
Your Aspie score: 91 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 123 of 200
You seem to have both Aspie and neurotypical traits.
Don't understand what it means though.
You can take the test here: Click me!
Enjoy taking this long test! Take your time and answer the questions ;)
I just did this test, it's pretty long, but it's pretty interesting as well.
Something about... Aspie? I'm not very sure what it is, but I'll have to go take a look at the description again.
This is my result:
along with:
Your Aspie score: 91 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 123 of 200
You seem to have both Aspie and neurotypical traits.
Don't understand what it means though.
You can take the test here: Click me!
Enjoy taking this long test! Take your time and answer the questions ;)
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